When I was twenty I was dating a narcissist with BPD and a very sadistic personality. She used her experiences with her exes against me to stir up jealousy. She took sick pleasure in hurting my feelings and poking at any insecurities she could find. For example, she had had a really passionate relationship with one of her exes and she’d talk about missing him all the time.
One of her exes had a huge dick. I read about it on her blog. He mentioned it himself on his own social media, and people knew him as a guy with a huge dick. After they broke up, she still hooked up with him. She loved his dick almost as much as she loved torturing me with jealousy about it.
She also made fun of one of her other exes for having a small dick. Dick size was often on her mind.
I was average at the time. I had looked up PE years before, but with my two girlfriends prior to her, my size was a total non-issue. I was quite confident. I had tried jelqing for a bit to experiment when I was in high school, saw that it worked, but didn’t see any point in continuing.
The first time I had sex with the narcissist, my sexual confidence collapsed. She claimed to have an STD and so didn’t want oral sex, so I wasn’t able to get us in the mood. When I entered her, it was wildly loose. She made almost no reaction. The sex was terrible for both of us. I was a total emotional wreck after that.
I immediately began jelqing again. Then I found Thunder’s and starting hanging. Tried pumping. Lots of experimentation, and it totally worked.
Before I left the narcissist, she commented that it felt like I was getting longer. I told her that I was using methods to grow it. Haha.
These days I’m very confident in my sexuality. Having a big dick helps. Knowledge of human sexuality helps. Knowledge of psychology helps. Knowledge of sexual techniques helps. Being in touch with myself spiritually helps.
Now I’m with a stunning woman with a heart of gold and a brilliant mind. I’m sure she’s had bigger in the past, but it doesn’t bother me because we both know I’m her sexual best, by far.