Have I cornered myself?

Definitely not a bad thing. I masturbate all the time when sexting with my girlfriend haha. But in your case I’d avoid it for now just so you have the chance to get used to her. I’m not saying make it a permanent thing, but in my opinion the best way to re-sensitize yourself is by avoiding the stimulation itself. Maybe it’ll be different for you, but see what happens if you sext without masturbating.

@Fornestruct
That is a very interesting timeline, seems you were better off than me to begin with lol. From “thought alone” I never really observed if I can get erections, always ended up playing with my stuff in some way or the other and don’t think it’s something I can do(definitely not at the moment). This also brought me back to the idea of viewing porn just because I enjoy looking at women but I understand when you say I’d probably be better off without it. Gonna stick with as little porn as possible(never masturbating to it) —> no porn eventually. I also have been thinking maybe its the stress and lack of sleep these days, the constant worry and busyness of my schedule could possibly be making things bad for my erections. Thanks for the elaboration

@How lack
Yes I’m starting to think more and more it is performance anxiety more than anything but am still going to cut the porn as best I can. She really is worth me dropping it anyway. I do feel better, now I’m not constantly worried that every porn related image I happen to see is going to devastate me in the long run, but that isn’t going to stop me from abstaining from it.

@SexualKungFu
Really good that it isn’t a bad thing. Will definitely try the no masturbating to it for awhile, maybe a couple weeks.

Thank you guys so much for the wonderful support and great answers. I think I’ll still be taking a little break from PE for maybe another week or so just to let myself recuperate a little better. Once I start back it will be with no porn, no matter how difficult it is or how I have to change my workout. With that in mind are there any specific exercises or routines anyone knows of that are aimed more at EQ than size gains? Right now I would really like to up EQ before anything else.