OS- I can tell you 100% that it is not in my mind. I have been thinking about the pump but wasn’t convinced its appropriate for my situation. I mean, I have some kind of leak. Fuck. I need to do that though.
Again, I appreciate your response greatly. However, I can tell you with the utmost confidence that it isn’t mental. Even before the days I started having frequent sex at age 16, I had problems, just wasn’t conscious of them. I guess they weren’t "problems" until I started having sex, you know? I’m trying to think of some sort of clever analogy with that. But you get it.
From my first post in my log, I ordered over the internet, powder Cialis. Only months later did I receive prescription Viagra and Cialis.
It doesn’t stay swell during an erection. It immediately shrinks after I kegel; in fact, its quite the opposite. It doesn’t swell, get hard, or become engorged if i DON’T kegel. That is why I think I developed my BC muscle as strong as I did, unconsciously trying to compensate for the blood loss. If I manually stimulate it does become hard but quickly becomes limp. In fact, I just tested it. I manually stimulated myself and in about 10-15 seconds, now I am soft. Completely stop. As soon as I stop manual stimulation, softness soon follows thereafter.
I am embarrassed to say i’ve only had good sex once in my life. Thats it.
If you could take a look at my log, that would be greatly appreciated. My log has been here for about a year and its easy to read and lots of stuff you can skip, in bold. I would then think you could make an accurate assessment. But of course, that is only if you have the time. But I would greatly appreciate your help.