Mental Illness ED
I was doing jelqing pumping and traction about 6 years ago. From what I remember i was doing jelqing on the erect side of things because i could barely touch myself without getting an erection and I don’t think I was aware of the fact that erect jelqing should be avoided. I was getting really great results from jelqing. After about 2 years of jelqing i stopped and kept dabbling with pumping and traction. At the time I was with a girlfriend and I noticed my erections getting softer. I didn’t think too much of it and looking back I think I was slipping into depression, that could’ve been the cause. A few years later I had a bottle of wine with a girl at my place and I couldn’t get it up. It really scared me after that. My anxiety went through the roof and I couldn’t keep it up after that. I went to get a penile doppler ultrasound exam so i could learn what was going on with me. Before the exam i got a shot in my dick to induce an erection. As i was in the back tugging on my dick watching porn on my phone to get hard for the exam, things were not working. I felt like i was walking the blank, I couldn’t beat the softness out of my penis. The exam showed no fibrosis, no venous leak but some arterial deficiency( peak systolic velocity 20cm/sec). I have a history of depression and anxiety. After that things went downhill fast. I ended up in a full blown depressive episode with severe anxiety. Two years later i ended up on the psych ward for 3 months where I ended it up getting two rounds of ECT(electro convulsive therapy). Now two years later I’m still dealing with some mental issues and ED that really doesn’t help. I can’t help slipping into occasional devastation when I think that my jelqing stupidity has given me ED for the rest of my life. I know I’m not well mentally and have become very aware that mental health severely impacts erectile health. I read that chronic stress can permanently activate your sympathetic nervous system which would work against erections. I can’t get fully hard or stay hard and i don’t get nocturnal erections even with 5mg Cialis daily. I’ve seen 3 urologists and they all say i look fine even though my peak systolic velocity shows ED. Arterial blood flow being under 35cm/sec reflects that(mine is 20cm/sec). I know Dr. Google doesn’t have a medical license but from what i read on there it shows low Arterial blood flow.
I suffer from Bipolar disorder, this whole thing has really triggered bipolar depression.
Here are my questions. I read jelqing can give you fibrosis or venous leak which i apparently don’t have, but can it damage your arteries?
My second question is does anyone have experience with ED and mental illness? Have you had a mental health recovery that helped with ED?
Has anyone had Mental Health problems that abolished nocturnal erections?