Mattlapp started a thread about a condition called varicocele. I have this in both testicles, quite badly in the left, but I was under the impression that it does not cause impotence. I’ve been to a urologist about it, and he did ask me if I was impotent but, embarrassed, I told him that it wasn’t something I experienced. My varicoceles became noticable when I was about 15 years old and, now that I think about it, that’s about the same time I noticed a reduction in the strength of my erections.
My doctor told me that I may have caused myself to have this condition by masturbationg too vigourously (I was very rought with myself), and he may be right. When I was 16 the time came for me to lose my virginity. I was aroused but, much to my horror, I couldn’t get an erection. We tried and did something resembling sex, but the whole thing was a disaster. I dated that girl for almost two years; over the course of those two years I noticed that I lost interest in sex.
The point? I’m thinking that maybe my impotence is related to my varicoceles, and my lack of interest in sex is my way of avoiding the sense of failure and unmanliness in the bedroom. I think I’ll talk to a urologist about this and see if anything can be done before I have my hormone levels tested (unless the doctor wants to do it anyway, I’ll toss the idea into the air with him).
This idea came to me because I did a search on google after reading Mattlapp’s post and read that varicoceles can cause impotence. I hadn’t known this before. I’m hoping that I’ve stumbled upon something that can help me. Being impotent from the very first sexual attempt can do bad things to your self-esteem. But I refuse to give up hope. :o )
I may have it my whole life, but I’ll always hope and try to find ways to make it better.
::tosses ten bucks into the doctor-visit fund::
"Only enemies speak the truth; friends and lovers lie endlessly, caught in the web of duty". -Roland, in Stephen King's The Last Gunslinger