Is it me??
I had my first sexual experience with my mothers best friend at the tender age of 14. I know that is really wrong now, but at that time I was a walking hormone who wanted to know everything about women and sex. She was also the first women I ever saw “naked”. Not from a picture or anything. She was a brunnette. And she also enjoyed putting her finger up my ass while she blew me. Now that was a little different but after a while it was very enjoyable.
Fast forward 6 years later. Im dating this model. Most beautiful girl I have ever seen. I was playing full time in a band then and met lots of women. Why she picked a skrawny blonde drummer I dont know. :) But, she also was a brunnette. And she also liked to finger my ass when she blew me.
Fast forward to 10 years later. My wife has a suprise for me she says. She comes home and her hair is now a brunnette. (was reddish brown.) Freaks me out completely. So she is blowing me one night and I kinda ask her to finger my ass while she is doing this. NOTE!!! I have never even asked this from her before cause I kinda “forgot” about liking it. She says no, its disgusting, yada yada yada…….
And now Im kinda depressed about it. Why??? I have no idea.
Any advice?