Iamaru, That was the best message ever received man. Thankyou.
I have to say, The republican christian version of whats manly really does have an influence on what a man ought to be. I do have to say on the other hand, I’m 31 and a MAN. It’s quite embarrassing as I’m handling this very childish but then again, it’s hard as we all want to do right. I know some incredible men that you would never know they were gay.
Maybe I’m having a tuff time due to the fact that I hate to have my family break apart just to enjoy ensure my own happiness.
Please correct me if I’m wrong but would you say it’s better to make it work for the kids sake or just let go? I also want them to see me happy and there Mommy. I will always care for her but we r so different together. She’s a very bitter woman and day to day, the tension drains me. I let her talk and I just move on but finding out maybe this isn’t the way to deal with this.
I guess all can be done is just that, baby steps. Learn day by day by the mistakes made and grow from there.
Down right for me, my answer is simple. I grew up with incredible troubles checking men out and masturbating to thoughts of them. I believe I’v always been gay but never wanted to acknowledge it. I do have to say though, when I experienced woman sexually, I always washed myself very quickly after sex. The only 1 I enjoyed sexually was my current wife. At the time she came on to me in a way that made me comfortable and very erotic.
I could have simply been satisfied with her all my life but she truly broke my heart. When I became ill, she searched somewhere else and defiantly lied to my face and even cried with me and said she acted it out. I know now why it’s so hard for me to find that attraction again with her.
Thanks for comments, end of this chapter.lol.