I got a taste of hard flaccid, and it was truly the most terrifying thing ever.
I couldn’t post this in the ”injuries and treatment” category, so I’ll post it here and hope that the mods will leave it.
I started PE on January 11th with hopes of gaining some during the upcoming months. Since I wanted to do it safely, I went with the linear newbie routine but I started out with 25 jelqs after a long warm up (10-15 min) since I figured that some people start out with 10 minutes of jelqing, and that I probably would be safe with doing 25 very soft(!) strokes. I increased to 50 jelqs by week three. Turns out, my penis was pretty sensitive. First I noticed that my penis was fluffy and heavier in a flaccid state, and then I noticed an increase in both girth and length. My EQ was better than ever and it really boosted my confidence. (My girlfriend said that it felt ”so thick” but the day after she said ”it does feel thicker but I don’t really give a shit you know”, but I do and I intended to continue).
I jelqed three days ago, and a couple of hours later we had sex. And then, I thought I was fucked. In three hours or so I got a hard flaccid with many of the symptoms that usually goes with it: cold and numb sensations, white-ish glans, lifeless feeling to it (it felt like I had a vagina) and lots of pain when I was about to get an erection - but above all, I was so terrified and sad. Completely beyond anything I’ve ever felt before. I was reading stories on how it could take anything from 2-3 weeks or up to years to heal, and maybe even never. I read about how people were suicidal from it and had their relationships and confidence completely destroyed. I was in a state of total panic and I cried, cried again and then cried some more and I was pretty much unable to talk to and I had to stay home from work.
I went to the ER and unsurprisingly the urologist hadn’t heard of this at all. He did some reading after I told him what I knew, and all he could say was ”I know this sucks bad. You gotta keep your focus anywhere but on your penis for at least a week. That’s my only advice. When you feel like touching it or having sex, go for a walk instead. I can’t really tell what has happened to your penis because it is strange that it’s hard even though it’s flaccid and that you have no sensation in it, but you have not destroyed any nerves and you will absolutely heal.”. I could tell that he told me this because on how the mindset affects this condition, even though it is primarily a physical one. I couldn’t take it at first because he obviously said it since he had know idea what to do. I chose to believe him though.
I woke up today and my dick felt a lot better. It’s more fluffy and I can actually feel it. I haven’t tried to get an erection, and I won’t try it for at least two weeks or even more. But I’m very positive that this was a minor injury that was easy for my body to take care of. I do want to tell you though, that be EXTREMELY SAFE WHILE JELQING. I have never in my life felt so much anxiety. I love having sex in every way (duh), and being in a mental state where I’m seriously terrified that I will never have it again or even in just half a year was the worst compote of emotions I have ever felt. Seriously, do some reading on hard flaccid caused by either nerve damage or chronic pelvic pain syndrome and try to understand the poor people who are telling their stories, and ask yourself if that’s a risk you’d be willing to take. I am not saying that these exercises are bullshit and that you will suffer from this, because they aren’t and you might be one of those with a resistant dick if you’re doing it all very safe. But you may be sensitive, and you won’t know until it’s at least close to ”too late”.
I will quit these exercises and focus on kegels (standard and reverse), and maybe try out the Angion method in a couple of months. My 6 inch dick will have to be what I got for the rest of my life, and that’s fine. My lady loves it and I will have to love it too.
Thank you for this good spirited community and good luck everybody!