Put simply, I wouldn’t worry about this too much. I think most things in life that are accomplished to any meaningful end are the result of an obsessive drive. At least for a period of time. I actually envy you in this regard, for it’s PE that often takes a back seat to many other diversions in my life. How nice it would be to get back into the groove of obsessive PE. Winter’s here, time is right! I know what you mean when you say that PE can overwelm ones thoughts when being practiced. Does this to me also, but at least it’s tied into reality in a healthy sort of way. Isn’t there a story or something entitled “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty” where this motherfucker’s every thought is a fantasy about things he never did and never will do? I could be wrong on the title, but there is such a piece written. IMO, better to think about stuff we’re actually doing or can do in the future rather than something unlikely or impossible like Walt does. Pe thought preoccupation is really no different than thinking about working-out, hunting, building a new deck (dick?), website, or whateverthefuck. I like to think of my mind and thought processes as the last great bastion of total freedom that I have. Likely the reason that I start laughing for no apparent reason in public and when folks ask me what’s on my mind, all I can say is “You’d have to be there”. groa