Ooohh… obsessive negative thoughts. Yikes.
I have injury-phobia-phobia, I’m scared of being scared of injury. During your break, how much PE related reading did you do? Were you keeping up with threads here? If so, maybe you need a mental break, just to stop thinking about it. I mean no reading, no worrying, no PE for a bit.
How about a hobby… something particularly detail intensive to give your mind something else to worry about for a while. Something like balsa-wood airplane building, worry about your glue drying on your wings or something. I don’t know, just spitballing here.
You could try some negative reinforcement. Put a loose rubber band around your ballsack, and every time you catch yourself with a negative thought about PE…. THWAPP! :shrug: You could go less hardcore and put it around your wrist. Same concept.
This will sound psychobabble-ish but you could try consciously reprogramming your negative thoughts into positive ones. When you find yourself actually picturing yourself “ripping the entire thing off” stop and repeat some sort of key phrase, something like “No, that’s NOT true”, then specifically picture yourself doing the opposite: stretching gently and imagine your penis responding positively, with a gentle healthy throb of fresh blood, try to imagine the cellular healing and visualize the ligs gently relaxing and letting out more length. Whatever, bottom line, replace the negative image of holding your stump in your hand with one of your huge monster responding to PE with health, vigor, and injury-free gains. Hold that positive image, three deep breaths, relax and let it go, immediately move on to something else. A good hearty laugh, even a forced one, will help shift your mind to new gears. That’s called ‘banishing with laughter’ and it works to help break up thought patterns.
(Ahhh… I see now that I’ve been listening to that damn self-hypnosis CD far too much. ;) )
"It's ALL in your head. You just have no idea how big your head is." - Lon Milo DuQuette "The mind's role in P.E. is more important than the hand that touches the penis." - Mr. Nine Just ignore the crazy old man in his tinfoil-lined pyramid hat, smelling of EVO and muttering Ohhmmm my penis growwwws. He's not always to be taken literally.