I was doing the stretching only I have only found out resently that I was doing them wrong. I was suppose to be holding near the head and stretching the shaft but I was holding the entire shaft and trying to stretch the ligaments, which I thought was pulling out the inner length within my body. I got confused as this is what they do during length extending surgery, pull out the inner length, so I thought that I was supposed to do thye same when doing stretching.
I was pulling very hard one day and fealt the right ligament give way, without any pain. The pain came a little later and I took a bit of time of the program and then continued. The pain came back after a while but every day living was not hindered in any way apart from trying to exercise my dick.
I continued to masterbate every day and one day my ligs had just had enough of the pulling that my masturbating was doing and I fealt them starting to get sore again. Then I went on the rowing machine that same day and afterwards, I fealt pain which didn’t go away even though I might be doing nothing, just every day things would seem to re-pull it and make it painful. Bending down or weight training have been impossible to perform as it just makes my ligaments sore. After that rowing session my penis has been pointing towards the left alot more, not so much when fully erect but during the stages of it getting erect it really points to the left to a ridiculous degree. There is no bend in the penis. It is my right ligament not being as taught as the left which causes it, so my penis points to the left in a straight line from beginning to end with out bending. My ligs are still attached it seems as my erections point up at an angle of 2 0’clock which means the ligs are still keeping it upright but the pain in my ligs is only not noticible if I do no bending over or do any fast walking for a few days. It will come back and get re-pulled if I have to start moving about more again. It isn’t serious pain. It is very tolerable discomfort but it is more the fact that I don’t want to even move about, so that it will heal. I really want it to heal.
I am seeing a urologist in a month or so. It takes ages to get that type of appointment in England. I doubt he will be able to do anything for me anyway. I don’t want surgery. I want a dick that has stability during sex and points up. I might not have a choice though as I am unable to work because of this injury and I cannot have any sex as it causes serious pain for me. When I masterbate to relief my insesant labido, I have to be really, really gentle so that I don’t pull on the ligs. My life is totally fucked up and The fiuture is a very frightening prospect for me. I am dieing for a bigger penis but cannot do anything about it. My powerlifting which had been the best part of my life has been taken from me. I am so, so, fuckin depressed! Sorry if I am a bit negative but I don’t have much to live for at the moment. I can’t even work.