Physical, Psychological, and Emotional Success / Failure

Hey Guys!

Jeez, I haven’t been on here in about a month. Last time I posted, I reported that I actually lost length and girth in the first month. I’m back with my second months results, but not just about my penis. Please read …

ORIGINAL

CURRENT
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FL: 3.5
EL: 5.9
EG: 4.25

Now I know some of you are going, “Wow, this guy measures his junk wrong!” I’m telling you, I have been consistent in every way possible. My dick has apparently gotten “smaller” yet there has been a change. When I look at my dick it does appear to be bigger. When I am erect, it feels harder and looks bigger. I was with my girlfriend this weekend and she said “I swear it’s bigger”. Yet, I know the truth it isn’t. For our discussion, it hasn’t changed.

Now here is the thing. Although it feels bigger, the actual results are bringing me down … depressed / anxiety. Shouldn’t I take some pride in the fact that it looks bigger to me? When it comes the girlfriend, shouldn’t I be excited she is enjoying sex more (though I take whatever she says with a grain of salt, she knows I am insecure, probably trying to boost my confidence)? Has anyone gone through a period like this? It’s confusing to be honest, and I’m not liking my mood swings.

CURRENT ROUTINE

Sometimes I’ll throw a horse or two in when I am liking what I am seeing. Yet, it is still disheartening. What I found strange (although I shouldn’t have snooped) is that my family has a history of large dicks. I’m talking about 7.5” with 5.5” girth —- Or at least that is large to me. So I am trying to figure out how the hell I missed out on that.

I might as well get this out there incase anyone has advice. I have had two partners, both were virgins. One told me I had a really small dick, and my current one obviously hasn’t felt what a large cock is like. Should I fear her leaving based on size? If so, does anyone have experience catching a girl who has taken a huge cock and has downsized to something around my size 6x4.25? I’m often times irrational, thinking I probably won’t end up getting married because girls won’t accept such a small cock; or there isn’t any pleasure for her.

Just curious if anyone has experience with these feelings, how to deal with them, explanations for gains / losses results, tips on routine, etc.

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You probably just made your initial measurements inaccurately. It’s a common mistake.

GM

One of my best friends whose a girl who I grew up with used to sleep around with alot of black guys for they’re big dicks, now she’s settled down with this white dude and she admits he’s got a small dick when we tease her about it. So you could call that downgrading or whatever.

I don’t think she’ll leave you for another guy dude, she sounds like a nice girl.

Real women look for love, sluts looks for big dicks.

Just like I don’t go for big tits, or big asses, if I’m attracted to someone I’m attracted to them no matter what they’re body’s like.

Sometimes that’s just the way the chips fall. Being a country boy we (my family) are custom to whipping it out and taking a leak just about any time we need to go. Over the years I have learned that both my dad and brother are freakin huge, but not me. Finding my brothers stash of Magnum condoms when I was a teen confirmed this, along with the fact he got laid all the damn time. At least we can give thanks for Thunder’s Place and the opportunity to catch up.

I know this is bad, and it isn’t a shot at Thunders. This place is a true blessing, and I think the fact that men can openly talk about their deepest insecurities is a great blessing. But at times I find myself discouraged or depressed by some of the gains guys have achieved. I am happy for them, but it makes me feel “inferior”. I’m sure this has been discussed. I’m just overly sensative … at times I think my testosterone levels are really low.

You gotta be positive bro, don’t worry and keep doing your exercises. Do lots of kegels!

It can be intimidating at times, but its also evidence that this stuff really works! Like glandmaster said, perhaps your initial measurements were not as accurate as you think. If it looks and feels bigger, it probably is. Besides, your girlfriend says it seems bigger too. Given enough time (as in many many months), persistence, consistency and the right routine YOU WILL GAIN!

Take comfort in knowing that. Its also more common for those who are experiencing gains, to report them (as they should :) ). Those who don’t gain right away, or don’t gain as fast don’t usually report it (as much as the gainers anyway). Keep at it and when you get discouraged remind yourself that this whole thing is a long process and it takes a lot of work to make gains. Most things in life that we strive for take effort and PE is no exception. I’m a hardgainer, and I think for hardgainers especially, once you find the right “recipe” (as in routine schedule, technique, exercises, frequency) gains start to come along easier.

Best wishes hopesfall!