Yo, Wad - dig it, bro I know whereof you speak.
I am in “competition” with every dick my wifey has ever had (even tho she does not say so out loud), and even more so the dicks she “visits” on the chats.
She was a bit of a mattressback before we got together - and I am still trying to puzzle that one out after 13 years … maybe I really do give her great orgasms … hmmmmmmm - and she was with at least one guy over 8” long and pretty thick (seems he & I were at the same men’s retreat about 2years after she & I got married, and he recognized her picture … he apologized to ME for “using” her - lol). She swears that I am the only guy she has ever been with to bring her to the BIG “O” each time we make it - but she cums so easily, I still ain’t sure.
Anyway, Wad, I know what youare going thru. I am gaining (or trying to) more for me now, than for her - but, I am sure that she will appreciate the fact that I fill her better, and that I am working to keep myself sexually fit at the same time. I am still hovering around the 5.5NBPlength/4.5girth range, but I know that she notices that I can last a lot longer now, even without a condom. Believe me that my BEST “bareback” time used to be less than a minute - now I can go nearly 5! I just hope that as I grow, I won’t lose that skill as well.
I empathize with you, and it is hard to maintain “trust” after being hurt. She has had at least two on-line “affairs (non-physical) thru the chats, and is a MAJOR FLIRT when she is in the rooms. Even if she has not had “strange” dick since we have been together, her past haunts me - and some of her present actions are spurring me on to gain.
Hang in there, bro. When I get to your dimensions, I hope that she will stop looking, and start appreciating what she has. I have put a roof over her head and given her the security she has long wanted. Not that I am sone kinda dam hero or anything, but I treat her like a queen, and I am left outside much of the time.
Guess we all have our hurts, bro. Just keep working on the “improvements,” and remember - like a Pastor friend told me once, “we are the ones they are sleeping with, not the other guys.”
Check ya later -
SHALOM,
wan2Bbig/Alex