New PE'er and 1 month results
“Does it really work?” I’m sure many if not the large majority of you asked yourself this same question as I did before giving it a real go. I’ve flirted with jelqing on and off since I was 16 when I realized I wasn’t blessed with a penis I was proud to claim as mine. Nothing like being in the locker room with other guys bigger than you and then comforting yourself with well I’m a grower not a shower until you measure and compare to the world average. I had an average penis. Perhaps even slightly under average. For a confident dude like myself it was a humbling blow. A blow that caused me shame, embarrassment, self-doubt, years of over-compensation, etc.
The beginning: At 16 I began researching and scouring the internet in desperation to find ways to make my cock grow, since prayer seemed to fall on deaf ears. Pills, pumps, extenders, all seemed like viable options except for the fact that I lived at home with my parents and brothers. No way to really get a packaged delivered inconspicuously to the crib. I then found jelqing. My prayers were answered! Or so I thought. I printed out the JP-90 workout and started doing it in my bedroom every 2 nights with 1 day rest before going to bed. Being a swimmer who practiced before and after school everyday made this quite a chore and after not seeing real results after 4 weeks I gave up due to my impatience.
Entering college I had freedom from home and was finally able to get packages delivered without mom and pops asking what it was. I tried a penis pump and all sorts of pills and herbal enhancers. The pills did nothing (duh, I know) and I was very inconsistent with the pump as I had a roommate my freshman year and found it nearly impossible to adhere to his schedule and my social schedule. Plus, I was having lots and lots of sex, so I figured hey, maybe my joint ain’t so bad. It wasn’t until my junior year when I let my inadequacy seriously bother me again and I splurged on the labs 4 extender. I wore it religiously according to it’s recommended schedule for 6 weeks until I had one of the most embarrassing experiences of my life when I was wearing while golfing and it came undone during my swing and fell down my pants leg to the ground. Two of my friends were near by and I’m am 90% sure they saw it, but have never mentioned anything about it to this day. I measured my penis later that day and saw no results and that was it for me. Never used it again.
Years would go by and I would continue to search for ways to enlarge my penis safely. I tried herbal supplements a handful more times. I tried jelqing with half-ass commitments a few more times and then around three years ago I found Dr. Elist’s penis implant. Here I thought, “Finally! My savior has come.” I did my due diligence and found the majority of the reviews strongly positive and was feeling the most confident about having my wishes granted since ever. I went to a consultation, inspected the implants and was leaning towards getting the operation. However, having been through multiple surgeries for broken bones and having multiple plates and screws I had grown wary of surgeries’ results especially ones involving implants and most especially involving an implant to my most prized possession no matter how much grief it had caused me at times. I did more research and digging into the Dr. Elist procedure and alas the dirt arose. I happily decided to forgo surgery.
So what were my options? Live with what I have and be proud of it and if it’s too small for a girl then “fuck her” I thought. The next couple of years I continued to have multiple partners and lots of sex most definitely in search of sexual validation or penile validation more like it. Unconsciously, I thought the more girls I can make orgasm then that will ease my worries with the size of my penis. It didn’t ease my worries. It masked them and when a girl wouldn’t get off during sex or compliment my cock it would send my fragile ego spiraling down (a huge source to my growing substance abuse, but that’s whole other story). I was running, running away from dissatisfaction with my cock; with me.
Finally, I met a girl. A girl who I have been with for two + wonderful, blissful and simultaneously soul ripping and then again mending, years. She has been the only woman who I have let so deep into my insecurities about my cock and she has been strong and supportive and helpful in so many ways. My penis size was never a concern for her as we always had terrific sex and satisfaction was mutual. However my displeasure with my cock would inevitably rear its ugly head and began causing issues in the relationship. After many non-guided therapy sessions with each other I opened up to her about my self shame and told her that I had exhausted every possible option to remedy my predicament. She assured me that she loved me and loved my cock and I told her that it wasn’t enough because I didn’t love my cock. I got online that night and had remembered Thunder’s Place and PEgym and decided to give manual exercises another go as I have been supremely optimistic in so many other points in my life of doubt and despair that why can’t I be again in this one?
Well, after a weak start in February I finally committed myself to following the Newbie routine along with some variation on March 20, 2017.
I measured on Feb 18, 17 (rounded down to nearest hundredth of an inch and I’m not sure what EQ%)
These were measured sitting down.
NBPEL- 5.46”
BPEL- 6.15”
MSEG- 5.06”
BPSFL- 6.62”
On and off following the routine until March 20th, 2017 and then have been fully committed!
Measured on April 20th, 2017 (rounded to nearest 100th of an inch and at about 90-95% EQ after 20 mins of edging)
These were measured standing up unless otherwise noted.
NBPEL- 6”
BPEL- 6.5”
MSEG- 5.25” (sitting)
BPSFL- 6.62”
Now I know the measurements do not have many constants under the circumstances of measurement, but my penis has never measured at 6” NBPEL. Also, I find that when sitting down my penis measures larger than when standing, so the fact that I measured at 6” while standing made me extremely happy. I don’t recall my EQ from my starting measurements either, but I do remember it being strong. For my next measurement at the 3 month mark I will be sure to stand for all.
I have so much gratitude towards all of the contributors on this board and I hope this post will inspire potential beginners that are riding the fence to take this as nearly concrete evidence that this stuff works and can yield positive results if you are committed. I’ve been where you are.
After reaching the 6” mark I’m honestly not as over the moon as I predicted. An achievement that I am happy to have reached, but this has only given me the thirst to pursue a truly majestic cock. So far my journey has been one of great satisfaction. I have enjoyed the journey and not placed expectations on my results and I believe that will be the key to continued growth.
Currently my dream cock is 7.75 x 5.7. I will achieve that and continue to enjoy the process no matter how long it takes and look to cement those gains.
Thank you for reading.
Questions I have for veterans:
1) The size of my cock decreases quite a bit when I am laying down on my back as opposed to being upright or face down. Is this something that happens with anyone or everyone else? If so, has anyone found methods to increase the EQ and/or size while in this position?
2) I find it extremely difficult to jelq upwards. Any tips?
3) How do I cement gains?
Much thanks,
FolgersPole
