Restarting - Battling my own mind

So I have had a log on here before and to be honest things started going well. Definitely saw a girth gain and a little length. The big plus was the EQ. Kicked porn to the kerb.

Then I stopped my ongoing anxiety meds and weaned myself off the Cialis (full blown anxiety breakdown and antidepressants kill your erections big time) and it all went downhill, rapidly.

I had both started to get some (possibly phantom) pains and then ED hit me in full force and I bowed out of PE and this site. I found people’s successes in the face of my own failures just made my anxiety worse.

So I have had psychosexual therapy and established that I am having significant performance anxiety and the route to progression is probably couples therapy to tackle this in my relationship. Given current Covid issues this is not an option so I am leaning on Viagra to ensure successful encounters with my wife and take the pressure off.

On paper I shouldn’t have this as I know I have a great size, connection with my wife and am in good health/shape. But that’s not how mental issues work sadly…

I am working on controlling my anxiety so I wish to slowly start up again with kegals and edging. Metals have been tough as they trigger my hemorrhoids but I’m continuing anyway.

I have seen a lot of good posts and will be trying more mental practices to control the anxiety. It’s very deep routed and therapist thinks it’s just my mental wiring. Which I plan to shift as much as possible.

So I guess I’ll log here how it goes and get back in the game!

Welcome back, brother. I’ve been on and off for years. Giving it another go too.

Thanks man. Will see where it goes, I’m definitely starting right at the bottom of the hill but have some motivation now. Will capitalise on it!