Skryer's Journal Log

That makes sense but I guess the fear was greater, I just wanted to be save. Thank you for your words sir, next time I think I will be more secure of myself and may push through things like that.

The 14° Week a.k.a The Dread Week

I was scared and stressed because I got a bruise so I decided to take a break. My fears messed up my erection and increased my anxiety which lead me to get a little sick.

Now, starting on Monday I will only jelq maybe until week 16° or 17° but I am not really sure because my bruise is completely healed and I feel one hundred now, I was so glad I get to keep working towards something so awesome that I bought myself a Christmas present related to PE and it was a Bathmate X30.

I am looking into the future with children eyes and PE has already helped me feel like I can do whatever I want, man.. If I can increase my penis size which I already did that means I can tackle any issue sex related or otherwise.

I fell in love with this and there is only a hand full of things that make me feel like PE does.

The 15° Week

I was supposed to just jelq but I decide to stretch too because my bruise was completely healed and I was feeling good, however I changed things up a bit. Instead of doing 26 minutes of stretching I decided to cut it down to 13 and to be real it does not feel as deep of a stretch but it saves me so much time and makes it more fun and less like a work.

I put the bathmate purchase on hold because I had some issues but I pretend on buying it next year.

I do not feel big but sometimes I do feel a little thicker, I will measure myself probably at December 30 and then I will close my 4 months commitment, I came for the dream of being big and had some expectation but decided to stay for the hard work and discipline PE gives me, sure that the success even though a little underwhelming is keeping me motivated and focused.

The 16° Week

What a choppy week, eh. As my first four months of PE and the year comes to a closure I am loosing my motivation in all aspects of life.. Work, working out and especially in PE however I know it is just the feeling of “ending a cycle” because next year the bathmate x30 that I purchased (again) will be here and things are going to get very, very interesting.

I will make a change in my routine and may stop jelqing and stretching however I might stretch once in a while but as soon as my bathmate is here I will only use it as my PE routine.

Why the Bathmate and not a stretcher/ADS? My ultimate goal is to get up to 20 cm or 8 inches NBPEL and I am just 3 cm or 1.3 inches away and I believe that with some light stretches I can achieve my goals safely by December of 2019 and because of that my attention was directed to girth and funny enough the Bathmate will provide both of them but especially girth therefore it is a perfect match for me and my goals. I want to buy the Stealth for Men (ADS) but not right now.

Anyways, happy holidays for you all.

I have learned gains in PE happens millimetrically and not centimetrically. I have huge respect for a 3cm change in NBPEL. If it was SFL thats one thing, but 3cm that will come from hardcore handstretching every day for one year or daily penis hanging not from light stretching.

I wish you attain your 3 cm goal next year and I wish I can do the same but you need hard really hard stretching every single day to reach your goal!

The 17° Week

You are right HenrikL it is very hard to even see small changes so only those who stick with it will know how awesome the results can be. The best of luck for you my brother.

This is the last week of the year and I just wanted to relax and not have to worry about PE so as I said in the week before, I took a break.

In the mean time my Bathmate x30 traveled across the ocean and it is on it’s way to my city, it will be here next week (week 18°) aka the first week of the year. Talking about new beginnings huh!?

So as promised I measured myself and those are my current numbers.

18cm (7,08’)BPEL - 17cm (6,69’)NBPEL
13,5cm (5,31’)MEG

Did not measured my flaccid because I did not wanted to really, sorry I want to do it when it is clear that it have changed.

How does it feel?
I feel incredible but humbled, I feel like I can do anything but it will be very very hard and work plus consistency will be heavily required and I am talking about all things that I want from life especially this next year. I feel more of a man.. I know it is silly but I feel like.. Better. I just feel better. Thank you all for keeping up the good fight and I will see you next year.

The 18° and 19° Weeks

I did not post for two weeks because I had a mental break down in which I almost lost my mind for good.. I had to quit some freelancer work I was doing and now I need to just focus on being alive however I did PE in both weeks because my Bathmate 7 x30 arrived and it was something that was supposed to give me hope.

The first week I almost smashed it with a hammer because it would not work and I did not saw “the pump” but after some tips from another forum I was able to keep going and I figured out that it would not work for me in a flaccid state so after I decide to go 90% erection it was very challenging and it’s been two days since I went full erection but only yesterday I was able to do full pressure on the last 5 minutes of a 15 minutes session. It was very, very hard but still no “bathmate pump”.

I saw some NBPEL gain after pumping but no girth, I will keep pushing until I can go the whole 15 minutes and then 20 minutes of full pressure. It will take some time but I like to take things slowly specially now that I am recovering from almost losing my shit.

The 20° Week

I am only using the Bathmate still and it has been fine, I learned not to masturbate after pumping and by doing so I can keep the flaccid “pump” for hours.

The first time I went hard in it I could reach 16cm and now I go over the 18cm mark with a great vacuum (Basically maxed out).

I am pumping for 15 minutes everyday and I will measure myself in 12 days.

I understand your frustration the bathmate X30 sucks. However the bathmate Hydro 7 is awsome totally different product. The X30 has awful vacuum seal the Hydro 7 has a great and comfortable seal. If you contact bathmate they will probably allow you to change your X30 for a Hydro 7.

I will keep the one I got just to avoid the headache of switching hehe it seems to be working I guess I just need to build up for it.

The 21° Week - The Bubble Scare

On Wednesday I went berserk with the bathmate.. It was very stupid because I got an edema (the aforementioned “bubble”) and it terrified me I thought my junk would be deformed for like it looked like a third nut right under the tip o my dick. Safety tip, just do not rush it.. I know it is frustrating and slow but the risk is not worth it.

I have some mental issue and that day I was very sad so I wanted to see the famous “after pump” so I went beast mode.

Take it slow and trust the process. Because of my mistake I took three days of and it seems I am one hundred now. The edema went away in 6 hours but I was sore (skin soreness) for like 36 hours.

I am so very sorry for being stupid I did not deserved to get off so easy but now I will be more careful and respectful of the device.

Skryer, way to stay on it brother.

Now you know what serious edema is. Don’t be so hard on your self.

A friend recently told me, there are no problems, only solutions.

Always move forward my friend, the past no longer exists.

Thanks a lot man and you are right in this race we need to keep looking ahead.

The 22° Week - I Measured Myself

I have been using the Bathmate (only) for 4 weeks and yesterday I decided to see if I made any progress. Actually I was going to measure two days ago but I got scared that I would measure the same and it would kill my motivation so I prepared my mind for any disappointment.

My current measurements were:
- 18 cm (7,08’) BPEL
- 17 cm (6,69’) NBPEL
- 13,5 cm (5,3’) MEG

And after 30 days they are a little bit better
- 18,2 cm (7,16’) BPEL
- 17,2 cm (6,77’) NBPEL
- 13,7 cm (5,39’) MEG

IMPORTANT: I did fap twice that day, once in the morning and again in the afternoon after pumping (yes I know.) the reason I fapped so much is because I am having a hard time controlling it so my EQ was not that great at late night when I measured. However I still could see some progress and it gave me hope.

I want to reach:
- 19 cm (7,48’) BPEL
- 18 cm (7,08’) NBPEL
- 14,5 cm (5,7’) MEG

By May 1° and if or when I do it I will tell you guys why and maybe a cool/weird story will come out of it. Wish me luck.

The 23° Week - It has been so little time

I just remembered that I have only been doing PE for 5 months and it is unbelievable the progress I made however I am not really happy.. Until I reach my final goal I do not think that I will be satisfied and maybe not even then but I guess that is what unite us, the need for change and success.

This week has been pretty standard. A few night without sleep some depression and a lot of sadness but I have been hitting PRs in the gym and PE has been very consistent and fulfilling.

I notice somethings about the bathmate and they are:
- If you use it after orgasm the session will be shit (as expected but now tested);
- If you have been watching porn for hours without orgasm the session will be shit (do not know really why but I did that twice and will not do a third);
- Sometimes or some days you will not hit “the mark” I suspect that everyone of us are used to hitting a certain number in the Bathmate and in every session we will aim for it or a little above which is pretty bad especially in days when it just will not happen.. Sometimes it is EQ and sometimes it just won’t go up their. I will talk more about this as I become more experienced.

PE has a place in my heart and I hope to become a legend in this world one day.