WELCOME MrNilsen to the forum at Thunder’s Place.
I have just read the entire thread with all the ups and downs of it all. You started out quite agitated, and because of that contradicted yourself quite a bit. These contradictions are now in the past and there is no reason to bring them up again. But, this did cause members to wonder about the validity of your claims. However, I believe that you have finally come to realize that all of us here want the best for you and want to help in anyway we can, and will do so if you will let us.
As a “Newbie”, you were following a MOS Newbie Routine, and not one of the Thunder’s Place approved Newbie Routines. Your “MOS Newbie Routine was entirely too intense for a Newbie and I personally think you caused harm to your penis by following it. And, since you are a steel worker and in good shape and with hands that are probably stronger than most, you just may, without realizing or knowing it, have been too intense in your stretching and jelqing. Especially since you did so “many” jelqs as a Newbie. However, this said, I don’t that your ED problem is entirely due to a possible PE injury, but only part of it.
I really believe that, whether you were or were not aware of it, you were experiencing an underlying insecurity problem (in other words, your small flaccid). This, along with your past “family problems” of which you mentioned earlier, were and still are probably the cause of your ED. Memories of problems just don’t go away over night, they linger in the subconscious! I don’t think that PEing, if done correctly, would or could have caused your ED.
I do hope that you will take a good break. Stop thinking and reading about what can be or could be and think about other things. Stop taking Viagra and using creams that can arouse, and forget about masturbating. And, if possible, try to not think of sex, which will probably be the hardest of all to do.
Then, after the break, begin a “TP approved Newbie Routine.” You don’t have to do it to gain length or girth, but do it just for the health of your penis and erection ability Take it easy, do your jelqs and stretches slowly. Don’t be in a rush to do a certain number in a certain amount of time. Go slow! And, as one of the members told me in the the beginning when I was sore and had a really big blister…”you don’t have to kill it or beat it to death to get results.” MrNilsen, you only have one dick in this life. Be kind to him and he will be kind to you.
Let us know how it comes out. Remember We are a band of brothers here and, you know, we really do care! GOOD LUCK.