It’s all in your head. I know things are hard, I wish I could say about my family but I can’t because of omerta vow. Been depressed some of my favorite family members got ., but my boner didn’t get whacked.
Try stay positive, I know you can do it. Do something that cheer you up and makes you happy instead of stay depressed. Like play sports, poker, go out with guys, or whatever you do for fun.
I have had some girls made a comment about me when I was young, but it didn’t stop me and made me a better than before. Don’t let those girls fuck your mind, try improve and prove them wrong.
Few of most famous celebrities failed university or dropped out of high school/college. Look at Johnny Depp and Mark Wahlberg, they are a high school drop out and they are very famous now. Brad Pitt was in military and dirt poor before became famous. Bruce Willis dropped out from the university. Dick Cheney failed university, he came back to different university and graduated. GW Bush is an idiot but still graduated from Yale undergrad and Harvard graduate school, I still don’t understand how he graduated from top tier universities, someone must have done his homework/exams.
look at these high school dropout celebrities.
Move out of the religious house and be on your own.
Don’t let someone stop you!