Hopeless problem.

I’m sorry for making threads all the time, but if you were in this situation you would also have done that.
I decided to start PE with the newbie routine, I was awared of all the injuries you could suffered due to this but ofcourse I was too excited in this.
Well I started the routine at the first day of april, I thought I would kept doing this for some months but it ended up in a tragedy 4-5 days later.
I shall notice that my dick felt good after the first sessions, but during one session something felt VERY VERY VERY wrong, my dick started a sort of rush during the jelqing and got shriveled, lifeless and limp.
With my lack of experience I thought it would return in a week or two..
I can’t remember i jelqed at 100% erection, and I didn’t drag of my penis during the stretching so I guess i were one of these unlucky guys.
Well maybe i had a too hard grip or maybe I were doing too much in a short time of period, (i followed the newbie routine) and i also skipped the kegels.
I stopped PE directly after this in hope to recover most of it’s way.
I had my hope up for maybe one week or two, but today I can’t see any improvements even if i’m in a really bad mood psychically.

My dicks mood right now

Hard and shriveled in flaccid mode
Sometimes lifeless and just hanging.
Some sensitivity loss
Can’t keep the blood in the glans.
Some minor discoloration i think.
Pins and needles sensations in testicles

These problems has caused me

Anxiety attacks
Suicide thoughts
Depression
Skipping all life activitys

Last week I met a doctor who said that i couldn’t get any nerve damage due to this stuff, after that I got more positive and i decided for myself to start the “life” again. It got better, the fact is that i woke up with morning wood those days I were glad.
Some days I felt normal again, I got spontaneous erections also and it wasn’t that hard to stimulate my penis to erection.
I could also noticed that my dick were not that hard and shriveled.
Even if it’s not were in that good old shape i could live with that dick.
But at the tuesday i noticed a scary thing, I got nervous for a thing and I felt that rush again, I almost lost all of my sensitive in the shaft of my penis, I didn’t worry that much and I got some sensitive back the next day, the problem is that anxiety captured me again, and now the penis is back to it’s bad shape again.
I’m wondering how much the anxiety promote this.
All doc’s I have been to have said that it’s very hard to damage your penis, ofcourse I believe them but I know that they aren’t that experienced in PE.
I also said to the doc how I caused the damage, it’s always best to say the truth.

I’ve lost all my hope, I could not see any way out of this, It’s seems that my life are destroyed, I have to accept it but all I can say is that i don’t want to live a life like this. Ofcourse I could consider a urologist, but I can’t see how they will fix this.

I wake up at nights 4-5 times and gets panic, i’m crying all the days, last night I even dreamed about my penile injury.

Guys try to put yourself in this position, I would be glad if someone could give me any sort of hope even if all my hope probably is lost.. :(
I can only blame myself putting myself in this situation, guys take it easy out there and research alot before you continue with this, this was a mistake I have to regret for my whole life.

Maroshk, first of all, I know it’s hard - but try not to be so negative. From all that you said it seems you are overreacting with this “doomed for life” thinking.

This is very good! It shows that the damage is not so much physical.

What did you do prior to this? Jelqed? For Christ’s sake, haven’t you learned anything from the first mistake? Take at least another 3 weeks of rest before you even touch dick.

Another thing is, dick won’t work if you’re scared. So try to relax, go on with your life, because if you just sit there and worry you’ll just get more depressed and won’t accomplish anything good. Nothing. Forget about your penis and do other things and you’ll be less depressed. Don’t you have any responsibilities?

It’s good that you went to the doctor.

Of course you can’t see if he can fix it, do you have the same education as him? No. So, go see the urologist if you can’t get your dick up. But from what you’ve told us, it seems that you just got very scared. I’m not really sure but I think urologist can give you some drug or inject something and see if the problem is physical or not, i.e. your penis will salute to the drug.

Relax, go see urologist, live your life. Forget about PE for a while. In about a week watch your favorite porn and see how your dick responds. Report back. When you feel your dick is ready for some manipulation GO EASY this time. You should hear this a lot here - PE is a marathon, not a sprint.

Take care and good luck man. You’ve got our support.

Are you getting outdoors and excercising? What is your diet like? It seems you have some depression. My unit dies when I am stressed and have mild depression from time to time. It is very sensitive to that. It comes back. You might need lots of cardio and a change of diet. Maybe some therapy to find some ways to help you cope with life.

Maroshk

By what you are telling us here you are improving! You say some days you can get spontanious erections . That must be an improvement on the time when nothing was happening.

Try looking on the positive things that are happening , rather than dwelling on the negative things.

You are getting better but it is taking time. Yes. somehow you seriously damaged your dick. , and time is healing it. The pins and needles show that somwewhere you damaged a nerve and perhaps somethi ng is pressing on the nerve because it is swollen. That may have to go down , and the best way to ease that sort of problem is the warm water I suggested. Just put some warm water in a jam jar and let your balls and penis stay in that for a while making sure that the whole area where you penis meets your body is warmed as well.

As to sensitivity try gently massaging the ridge where your glans joins your penis. That is very sensitive and may help you to get erections.All you need to do is place your fingers and thumb on the ridge and sqeeze and massage very very gently.

If there are points of pain then again gentle masage with perhaps one finger moving over the area.

But do try to think positively and look upon the improvements as something positive in the healing process.

Maroshk:

Are you on antidepressants (things lke xanax and such)?
Are you taking some other medicine?
Did you have emotional stressors?

Maroshk;

Each time you get that “rush” and then a negative result, the rush is caused by a surge of anxiety which in turn causes a reactive surge in adrenalin. Adrenalin is an erection killer. It is a normal response we all have to fear, and actually a good one for us to have in other situations.

When the doctor reassured you, you felt comfort, stopped pumping adrenalin, and had good results for awhile.

Try to stay focused, do only safe PE, and your penis will respond appropriately. Worry, and it won’t.

Shit, woke up and had the same anxiety problem.. this are not getting out of my mind!
I have to think about something else, but this is bothering me so much. I don’t even give my body the chance to heal it because of all anxiety, i’m also comparing to the dick i had before and im not satisfied with what i have now, could be a problem..

I must go and see a urologist and I also need some sort of therapy because this can’t kept continue…

I’m not taking any antidepressive or medicines.

Yes I have emotional stressors :/

Have a little faith in your body, man! It IS going to heal.

Maroshk.
It is obvious from your first post on this thread that your problem is being “kept in place” by stress and anxiety. You can’t just tell your dick to relax, because it is not under direct voluntary control. But you can create peace in your life, and you need to do it now. You also need to love yourself more. The muscles in your pelvis and groin area are also in spasm, these can be relaxed by an act of will, but first you need to be more in touch with your body.

You need to go on a voyage of self discovery.

Find out all you can about being a loving and peaceful person, this will do the trick.

It’s so annoying, sometimes it feels fine when I stimulate it a little bit, but then I stand up and it gets hard again.

I believe that this problem makes it feel limp at all, my sensitive is good in the glans and the skin near the glans but it’s less at the shaft that dont bothering me much, but this hard flaccid penis DRIVES ME CRAZY!! and there seems to be no solution

I just told you a very possible solution. Read your own first post on this thread as if you were somebody else, then read mine.

I did feel better under the ‘good’ period för maybe 10 days ago, but the problem is that I have the thoughts that this is permanent and taking the anxiety away just treat the symtomps a little bit, it could be so it could not be so who knows. That’s the problem why It’s hard for me to get on feets again.

Btw thank you for all help.

Going to a doctor tommorow and he will permit me to a urologist, I will tell him exactly what happened and i’m gonna ask if I can solve this in any way.

Maroshk, you have had a lot of good repiles. Re-read them all.

Hey Maroshk, be careful!

It is good that you are going to a doctor. I hope that you feel better soon.

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