Just something else I should add. I was watching a video on Youtube last night and this middle aged woman was talking about sex and how she likes slow sex, and after 10-15 seconds my dick was a 10 in erection level terms. Like iron.
Now when I use my hand for manual stimulation it RARELY is a 10. At best, perhaps an 8. So based on this my arousal levels without manual stimulation can eclipse my erection levels WITH manual stimulation by a fairly significant amount.
I have no idea why this is. Again, maybe it’s because my brain is so used to my hands by now. But the fact I can achieve a 10 erection without manual stimulation is proof that I am capable of rock hard erections. My problem is .. I need a specific trigger(s) to get there. It won’t always get there, but at least I know my body is capable.
However when I’m watching TV and I see a beautiful woman even semi-naked I don’t get that rush of blood to the penis. It just doesn’t happen. My arousal triggers are just really weird and I wish I could figure them out.
Maybe by abstaining from porn and masturbation these triggers will be more easily obtained. I have no idea. Maybe I need a fleshlight to improve my erection hardness as it will teach my brain not to rely on my hands for manual stimulation to get hard. Anyone’s thoughts on that?
And maybe I need to abstain from porn to “reset” my arousal levels. But everytime I see some hot girl on TV and I think to myself “I should be having a rock hard erection right now” and it doesn’t happen. So like I said, my arousal triggers are just a bit fucked.
But then when I’m with a real woman, I can achieve an erection, either by just being close to her and naked and just kissing/feeling but the erection level isn’t a 10 and doesn’t last long - after a while I can feel it getting softer and softer. Sorry for the long post everyone, I just feel like I have too many problems here. :( Then on top of that, DE, which you would think is a blessing in disguise but it’s really not. It’s more of a curse.