Only one month at it and I’ve injured myself
Hello All,
I’ve been lurking at this great forum for about 2 months and PEing for just over a month. Well here’s my story. I’m 46, married 19 years, in good health and physically active. I’ve never had much concern about penis size and have always considered myself “average” although an inside joke between my wife and I is “Honey, I wish I had a Cock!, but I only have a penis”. As it turns out I was in a good place to start with 7” ELBP and 5.25” EG.
I love my wife and enjoy being with her, we talk and call each other everyday, we cuddle a lot, we enjoy doing many of the things any couple enjoys, but we exist in a sexless marriage (another story for another time). I mentioned this because in a way that’s how I ultimately ended up at Thunder’s. We are on totally different circadian rhythms; she’s early to bed, early to rise and I’m pretty much an insomniac so I spend a lot of time surfing the net at night.
Needless to say I masturbate quite a lot usually using porn for stimulation. It’s such a turn-on for me to see those female pros handle a huge cock like they do, but that probably goes without saying. I’ve always heard about PE and vaguely remember watching with interest a show (maybe HBO Real Sex?) with some guy talking about and demonstrating PE and his reasons for doing it. Well one night I Googled, you guessed it, “penis enlargement” I purveyed the multitude of pay sites, which didn’t interest me, but eventually led me here.
Still a little skeptical, I started reading through the threads on this site. It didn’t take long to see how professional and honest the people are here and the breadth of PE knowledge available. I was convinced that PE is for-real. I read new member instructions, newbie forum and other pertinent threads and did searches for hours before attempting PE. I started with the typical newbie program of warm wrap, manual stretching and dry jelqing. Within three weeks I added 1/4” in length and maybe 1/8” inch in girth. Amazing! Not only did I have measurable gains, my penis just felt thicker and heavier in my hands.
I started clamping at the beginning of the fourth week. The first time was only for a few short minutes and I was very cautious, but WOW what an erection, I mean my penis looked bigger than it ever had, not only that, my erection was rock hard and lasted like that for at least 30 minutes (I was edging a little to keep it that way). Afterwards I didn’t feel any ill effects. I was hooked on clamping. Well folks, this is where it all started to go wrong for me and I have nobody to blame but myself. Despite all that I’ve read about being cautious and diligent my obsessive nature took over.
On day two of clamping I went for 3 sets of 3-5 minutes. In between sets I would perform some erect but light jelqing to keep things going the results we’re still great although I didn’t quite get that same experience I had the first time. After the second day workout my penis still felt fine but more fatigued than before. I didn’t perform PE on the third day. On day four I did pretty much the same routine as day two, but added some squeezes as well. Again everything seemed to be going OK, but hind-site being what it is there was some discoloration present, but no numbness or other indicators of damage.
Day five is when I did myself in. I clamped for three sets of 5 minutes or more with squeezes of up to one minute. The whole time I never really achieved the same powerful erection I had the first two days and I couldn’t keep it that way after I unclamped. Another problem for me this day was I was in the beginning stages of the flu. After that session I could never get a complete erection, but chalked that up to being sick. That was Monday.
Tuesday I was sick as a dog. So again I just assumed my erection problem was associated with my illness. I still achieved a couple of partial erections that day. By Wednesday I noticed some pronounced numbness around the base and even though I felt much better could not even get a partial erection. At one point I could visibly see my penis shrivel up and turn a lavender almost white color. It was completely flaccid. I was very concerned at this point and about to drive to the nearest emergency room.
There is some irony to this day. My wife, who is a registered nurse, returned home from her two day trip with some girlfriends and I asked her if I should go to the ER. In her opinion, I still have good blood flow due to the color and temperature of my penis and it didn’t warrant a trip to the ER. I did, however, have to explain how I got myself into this predicament. To my surprise she was very supportive (of my immediate situation). She did ask me to not attempt PE anymore, but also felt the condition would resolve itself. One positive note is while she was examining me I was able to achieve a partial erection and my penis has stayed plump and warm.
At the time of this writing my symptoms are that most of the numbness has given way to kind of a dull pain which is further localized to the base at the visible delineation of the scrotal sack on the left side. I have no problem urinating, but still am unable to achieve an erection although I’m not really trying and probably shouldn’t push it at this point. I’ve been keeping my penis in a vertical orientation and massaging the effected area lightly. Color and temperature appear normal. I do occasionally feel pressure at or near the affected area almost like the sensation of the beginning of an erection.
Thunder feel free to use my story as a case study of what happens when you get careless and over zealous. I feel optimistic at this point that I will recover and continue PE with a new outlook. I welcome anyone’s thoughts or comments and will keep you up to speed on my recovery.
