That said, it took me a while to realize I was bi and that it was a legitimate thing. Being gay is easier. It really is because there’s little confusion over what you find attractive. Like anyone else, there are hot women I lust for; but there are also hot guys I lust for. If a member of either sex isn’t attractive to me then I just don’t care. In boarding school and college and at one gym I went to we had gang showers and there were only a handful of guys who I was attracted to enough for it to spark a sexual urge. If I’m not attracted to you then you may as well be anyone else. You’ve got a body and if you’re male, you’ve got a penis. Great. Whoopie! Good for you. Doesn’t do a thing for me and I’ve seen more cock than Jenna Jameson.
That is how I view 99% of the guys I see on here. It just doesn’t ‘click’ in the brain. When I view the photos I look immediately for any sign of cheating with rulers or angles or Photochopping. After that I try to see how much pubic fat they have and then I look for before/after shots. I look for discoloration, spotting, and any other damage. Yeah, some guys have handsome penises. I’m happy for them. I admit that there are dicks I look at and think, “I wish mine looked like that.” But I also do that with other features I admire in various people.
It’s not a big deal. The guys who get all silly when they see another guy’s dick are nervous. They’re making comparisons, worrying that just seeing another penis is gay, and they don’t know how to deal with it so they express that nervousness with humor. It’s annoying and immature, but it happens.
I can look at a penis, mine or someone else’s and it’s not a big deal. I’ve seen plenty bigger, thicker, and slimmer than mine. None smaller, but hey, I’m the biggest grower I’ve ever seen and I’m not cruising the local gym anyway. I wasn’t teased in any school about my size though my closest friends knew about my anxiety.
It’s just a penis. If you want to look at the pics then look, if you don’t want to then don’t. It’s not a big deal……. well maybe it IS, but… you know what I mean.
And jelqing on a webcam with another guy? Yeah. That is gay. So what? If you’re aroused watching another guy stroking his dick then you are. Doesn’t mean you want to do anything more. We’re not programmed to be 100% straight nor 100% gay. Some people, like me, are closer to the middle. Most are closer to the ends but few are totally one or the other. That’s biology.
You know what? Enjoy it. Get over all the tittering and goofiness and if you get turned-on then you do. If you don’t, you don’t. Humans have an innate need to label and catagorize things. Most of us also live in a culture that encourages broad divisions between the ends of the human sexuality spectrum. It’s ridiculous, but the way things are.
Stop worrying about the labels and go with what you feel. If other people have problems with it then that’s their narrow-minded prurience being imposed on you. Tell them you have enough neuroses of your own.