I think porn does desensitize men and make them less likely to get out there and get a real person. I know a guy, 38 years old, who was likely inflicted with porn early, maybe 12 or 13 years old, and he’s never even kissed a girl or went on a date because he felt like his cock was too small. So he developed serious, serious dick size anxiety when he actually had no idea if anyone real thought it was big or small. He’s an obsessive PE’er and pumper and has pumped himself to injury several times trying to grow. He can’t cum unless he’s looking at intense porn, stuff I can’t stand to look at its so intense and over the top. He absolutely cannot cut out the porn even though I encourage him to just give it a try for even just a week. This is the kind of stuff I fear effects lots of guys out there.
My situation is different but recently I’ve been wondering if porn is normalizing the way I get hard and get off. My wife is in menopause and she’s had a hard time getting treatment for vaginal issues. Last year Covid fucked up her chances to get medicine and treatment adequately but she did manage to get some and it helped a little bit. But after not having intercourse at all for about 6 months and then to suddenly do it again was a revelation and it was a LOT to deal with all of a sudden. I still feared I’d hurt her with my cock; I’m not enormous but my cock is quite large going into her quite tiny vagina. So we were unable to have real, comfy sex from about November 2019 until August 2020. We did it three times last August and then not again until this January (she had problems with medication for vaginal dryness and atrophy and it took a long long time for her to get things back in shape again). While not having sex I masturbated, a lot. I always have but masturbation was literally my only outlet to get off. She can’t suck me off like she used to due to oral cancer in the past and permanent dry mouth and a rebuilt tongue from surgery, and her libido was completely gone so she wasn’t compelled to get me off like had in years past (we’ve been together and intimate for 23 years).
My masturbation ALWAYS involved me sitting at a computer looking at porn and edging for 30-50 or so minutes and then blowing a load. I refuse to look at any stuff that involves spitting, slapping, choking, etc.. Mainly girls getting themselves off is what I love to watch. So over the last two months she’s gotten back on the saddle and wants me to get on and ride and she feels great and there’s no pain at all and lubrication is decent now. Only I can’t perform for her :( My heart races and pounds so hard when I need to get hard that I can’t at all. In fact my cock doesn’t even feel like anything in my hand or in her mouth when trying to get simulation going to achieve an erection. I wake up every morning because my morning wood is so intense and strong. I can get hard in seconds anytime of the day I want to, with no external stimuli at all. I can make myself cum 2-4 times a day, sometimes in a few minutes, sometimes I’ll play for over an hour. Physically I’m perfectly fine. Mentally I’m a fucking train wreck.
It got to the point where just thinking about trying to have sex with my wife was making me panic during the day and I obsessed over if I’d be able to get hard for her. Intimacy was stressful and honestly I didn’t even feel like getting off at all most nights. It was just all too stressful. Then I started to not be able to get hard to just make myself cum while masturbating?! And that’s when, last week, I realized I don’t need porn. I tried to masturbate and cum without porn on at home last week and I’d go from hard to soft to hard to soft while actively fucking a good Fleshlight. I thought about if I needed porn while I was doing it. This was all bad!! I need a change!
My wife is a skinny little mid-40s cutie and is hot as fuck. I pop wood just looking at her most days anytime of the day. I can caress one of her boobs and my cock swells in my pants. She’s hot enough for me and always has been. Sunday I was out of town for work and decided to cum that night. I used porn. I got hard, it felt good. I went into the bathroom to continue and it was like panic ensued and I didn’t know why: the sheer thought of cumming made me freak out and I got too excited and lost wood. I had edged for about 20 minutes prior. WTF? I went back to my bedroom and put porn on again and got hard and came in 3 minutes. The next night I didn’t watch porn at all and got a raging hard on, made myself get turned on my by own pleasure, and then erupted. The following night I was in the bathtub enjoying the warm water and a soak and didn’t even want to get hard but did and from just using a little saliva I coaxed a very pleasurable boner and made myself cum in like 1 minute and I never make myself do that!
I’ve been off porn since Monday and I can tell the difference. I did a 10 day porn break last year and it was spectacular. I find myself just looking at it like the news: what’s new out there? Any new leads? What’s the hot breaking story? Will I follow it tomorrow? I’m kind of done wanting to look at it. I love the hot women and there is stuff online now that is so sexy I don’t know of a time when there’s been such insanely hot sexy stuff online. But I want and need my wife more now than ever before. She beat cancer twice in two years and is suffering from chemotherapy-induced menopause that is affecting her very hard earlier than it should be. Over the years we used to have sex 20-25 times a month like clockwork. Just sex of all kinds all the time. We talk about sex a lot and always have and we’re trying to get through this road bump. She’s patient with me thank god! I’m losing my fear of being with her for real again. Its weird: its like when I was still ready and hard and wanting to fuck she couldn’t do it at all, while now she’s finally hot and ready for me but I’m not ready. I’ve managed to put my flaccid in her to start and then get hard while in her (which is a really neat and pleasurable feeling for both of us!!!) but I want to be hard and insert myself into her, that’s what she wants to feel too.
This has made me want to lose interest in porn. Growing up I had no erotic imagery of any kind to use and I came my teenage brains out every day and night all the time. Here’s to no porn and the healing we can all do and pleasure we can all attain by avoiding it!!!