The anxiety issue is kinda tough, especially since you’re only 18.
I’m about to be 40, and I’ve injured myself twice. Once was severe bruising in June when I tried to combine exercises, the other I just had a spot of blood from the urethra when stretching on Monday. The blood was actually from just inside the urethra, I could feel a slight sting when I urinated, probably a small tear. Now the way I looked at it was “Oh well, it’s something to deal with, it’s not that bad”. Seems kinda cavalier, I know, but I’ve had a divorce, pay child support, been laid off (still laid off now, but I’m going to school), had speeding tickets, a DUI when I was 20, all kinds of shit. So with all that it’s easier for me to take things in stride.
It’s hard to do, but if you look at it like it’s not bad, but keep in mind that it can be, you can feel better. Don’t focus on how bad it is, because it might not be so bad, at least physically. Psychologically you can actually make yourself physically sick or increase the time it takes to get well. And there are many ED cases that are purely psychological, not physical. It would definitely be better if you can get the mind thing out of the equation, then you can know how bad or not the physical aspect of it is.
Maybe think about the worst shit that ever happened to you, and realize that you came out of it OK, like you’re not dead or something. I know it’s your dick, and who wouldn’t be freaked out about his dick not working right, or like it used to, but try to let that go for the moment. Hell, my ex wife was one of those “got any dreams? I want those, too” kinda women. Might as well have cut my dick off. But the power of the mind can overcome a lot.
Creating my monster. Start (3/01/06): BPEL-7 3/8", EG-5 1/4". Current (11/01/09): BPEL-8", EG-5 7/8". Goal BPEL-8 1/2", EG-6 1/4"
About 14 months total PE time. I'm very inconsistent.