This is My Story - The Road to a better me.

Hi guys, Great to meet you all! This forum isn’t just been a guide to PE, but a guide for my masculinity which I’m grateful for all the contributors to this website. Amazing work!

I started my journey just before Christmas when I had met a girl, which developed into a relationship extremely fast. She’s had a lot of experience in her life, and I’ve developed a few insecurities from my past experiences, which I believe will dampen my ability to truly be myself, and more so the relational dynamics. I have it in my head clearly that this relationship might not possibly last for very long, but due to the covid situation she’s been great company and someone I really want to please in the bedroom.

Backstory - The Hit Job.

My insecurities started as a child when we had gone on a camping trip with the school. I remember peeing next to a kid a similar age to me and continued to mock me for the size of my penis. Back then, I don’t think I took it very personally, however this memory kept resurfacing in the years to come.

My next experience, which I think was the main collapse of my sexual mental well-being; was when I was 18, me and a few friends from college went on a ‘Lads Holiday’ in Malia. Prior to this I would think of myself as a confident good looking bloke. I’m 6,3 with a naturally athletic frame, full head of hair, with a modest personality. This in my opinion was the beginning of a lot of mental health issues I’ve had in the past 8 years.. Until today. Which I want to state to all of you.

I will take control of my life.

Cut to the story. I was dancing around, being the childlike me, without a worry in the world. All of a sudden the most attractive girl I had ever met, starts flirting with me and kissing me. Then precedes to grab my package. She smiles and continues to flirt with me. Was this heaven? We take off and go skinny dipping in the sea and continue to get close the whole night. She later revealed to me that she was a lingerie model for Calvin Klein, lucky me. Then the fuck up happens.

In my naivety, I started confessing to her that I was a virgin and I hadn’t had much experience. She seemed a bit shocked and did comment on my honesty. The first fuck up was going skinny dipping. First off as a little reminder, is if you’re going to take off your clothes make sure they are close! We came out the sea and discovered all our clothes had been taken! Funny yes, embarrassing?. Fuck no. I was on the highest confident trip of my life, I had the most gorgeous girl I’d have set my eyes upon and drunk due to copious amounts of alcohol I had in my system. I wrapped a t-shirt round and off to the hotel we go, because tonight motherfuckers.. I’m losing my Virginity.

At the hotel we started making out and started messing around, and asked her if it was okay to put it in. She declined. She said to continue doing oral. Basically nothing happened that night, and in my pubescent mindset I was like maybe she wants to take it slow..

Turns out she and a couple of her friends were staying in the same hotel, literally the room next door to my friends room. So after a while she told me she was going to get to sleep so I agreed and took off. I found my friends and laid it on thick how I had the best night of my life and this girl was all over me and how I scored big time. Later on in the day I was on the balcony and my friends had gone over to spend a bit of time getting ready so I sat on the balcony preparing for the night ahead. I then hear my name. As curious as I was, I thought to myself, maybe I was that good that she wanted to tell all her friends about it.. But then turned out to be and absolute slaughter of my penis and how small it was and how fucking disappointing it was, and how she felt bad for me and just stringed me along the whole night because she felt guilty. FIRST OFF THE SEA WAS COLD!! MY PENIS SHRIVELLED UP.that’s what I told myself anyway but the damage was done it fucking broke me.

Next day we went on a boat party, and she hadn’t spoken to me all day, and refused contact.. Maybe she was just shy right? Who knows. There was a game where guys had to take their pants of, and this guy comes out with his Mandingo, which compared to me was at least FIVE TIMES AS BIG! Girls are wooing.. Guys faces dropping with disappointment left, right and centre.

Now this is where it starts to hit hard, later on in the day she walks past me hand in hand with the Mandingo guy and gives me a smirk. I never felt so defeated in my life.

Over the years since this experience; mixed in with other negative events, my confidence dropped massively. My reliance of pornography became a dependency. My future relationships crumbled extremely quickly due to my insecurities, and with the added context of a difficult childhood, my life collapsed. To the point where I had attempted suicide. I had no hope in life, I thought I was broken beyond repair.

This brings me to this moment in time. I’m not just here to do PE, but to start looking after myself again and take pride in who I am, because I know how capable I am. This is why I will pledge myself to this community and follow in the footsteps of others to become better versions of ourselves and take control in who we are.

I am beginning to get comfortable in the newbie routine and started making progress which I will update in this thread potentially. I want to be constant in this because in my track record I haven’t been very good at sticking to things. But removing my penis size as a insecurity is the first step of many, which I’m trying to include into my life.

Thank you for listening, this is the first time I’ve posted anything in my history of the internet and no longer want to be a lurker reading how other people live their lives. Its now time to live mine.

Current Routine

Rice Sock for 5 minutes.

Stretching for 5-10 minutes

Jelqing for 30 Minutes

Edging - On and off 10- 30 minutes

Extender for 60 minutes while the penis cools down (Potentially solidifying gains?)

Other aspects I’m practicing.

Learning about Testosterone and how to increase it naturally.
NoFap
Reading and improving my knowledge.
Social skills
Heavy laborious job
Weight lighting.

Anything people can suggest, I’d be extremely grateful!
Thanks for having me.

Add a cup of hot ginger drink to your diet everyday , it is hot, and it is supposed to increase your blood flow,
Which ideally should affect your meat down there, maybe improve the EQ and things like that.

Take it slowly and carefully man, safety first.

Thanks for the advice man, I’ll look into it! Interested to see what it does!

Might be good idea, because I’m not getting regular erections or morning wood. But I think that’s down to smoking.

Dude! That girl doesn’t exist, she’s one ina a million, read about women’s preference on this forum. Cock size is nothing, she’s just used you to step on, to be on top to her buddies.
A girl will multiple orgasm on a finger. Sorry she was evil to you, but I assure you she was just trolling around. Also read about girls talking about micropenis, many really don’t care.

A real woman thinks different, a girl may act like the one who crossed your path, just to fool around.

Please don’t rush. You’ll get a big one from PE, but think of a 5year goal

Sorry you encountered such a shallow chick. While the Mandingo may have looked 5x bigger there is less variance when our units are revved up. Shower vs grower. Some guys have huge flaccids but their erect state is barely much bigger.

With growing the unit: Stretching without using too much force is important to avoid toughening. Search here on progressive relaxation. Gentle psychopath talks about it on his thread. Kyrpa on his too. They are guys who grew multiple inches. I personally found ultrasound heat a break through - all precautions must be followed. I warm up with a rice sock and stretch for a bit then manually stretch with the ultrasound wand providing heat. Never use ultrasound heat on the unit unless you are actually stretching!

Remember also some guys are just confident regardless of their size and girls find this sexy - try find ways to tap into that mindset.

Good luck

You’re right. Confidence make us men. You may even have your dick chopped off, if you are confident and have a plan, everyone will go after you, cock size is just fetiche, just fantasy. You should read endless threads talking about this on here. Vagina size, cock size girls guys opinions.

IMO a huge cock is to show off, hang about waving that fat piece of meat, like riding a sport car or boat.

Do it for you and yourself only, surely you’re pleasure will increase but nothing is worth the risk of breaking your penis.

Good luck mate, and don’t ever get close to that skank again.

MaarkyD I am so sorry she did you like that, some people are very terrible and she was one. I can tell you from experience a guy with a small penis can please a woman in many ways.

I started my journey because I think after 35 years of marriage my wife deserves a man who can bring her joy from deep penetration. I just hope I can get big enough for that, but till then it’s good to know she has been happy for all the other ways she has been provided pleasure by, hence the 35 years of marriage.

Good luck in your journey but remember this you are always the best you can be just by being you.

Whatever you choose to do for PE, use constant heat.

Hahaha great advice mate!

Titleist, please judge this girl, would love to see her saying she only does big ones after taking you full😂😂

Don’t worry women like that don’t deserve you

My job isn’t to judge. She likes what she likes. We all like what we like. In my opinion it’s a great learning lesson. All that glitters isn’t gold.

He will end up with someone that adores him for being him.

Heavy story, I’m in the same leaque as you rn because of some big dick stories, but man.. I gotta tell you. I’m meditating and I’m realising that size matters AS WELL.
Let me ask you.. if you were with a woman you dont care for but she was tight as fuck.. so tight it would hurt your dick, would you like it?

Now imagine a woman you fucking love and the chemistry is amazing, passion through the roof, but she’s pretty loose.

What would YOU like more?

I know I would want the second one..as I’ve had both..
Yes, sometimes ‘porn fucking’ is nice.. but thats on those occasions. I think most women are the same.

Also I would like to add that everyone is different.. some women like hard pounding.. some women like soft tenderness… You dont ask a fish to climb like a monkey, you follow what Im saying?

(Also, what are your stats?)

We to much emphasis on sex. Yeah she may be great in bed but a horrible person out of bed. You can’t expect sex to hold a relationship together.

Titleist is a beast. Always straight to the point. I try to be concise, but then my mind gets going.