Hard Flaccid Update I received a penile doppler ultrasound. PLEASE READ
So I’m not sure where to begin but I’ll give a very brief back story of a traumatic experience that happened 4 years ago and I still suffer from the symptoms till this day. Please read as I feel like this experience might have some information that could help others going through this.
Long story short (kinda), about 4 years ago I go to the doctor for an HIV test (I do not have HIV or have any sexually transmitted disease). While I’m there, one of the nurses recommended I get a chlamydia and gonorrhea pills/shot since it was free and if I did have something (which I didnt) it would resolve the issue. I thought “fuck it, why not. Whats the worse that can happen?” LITERALLY THE WORST DECISION OF MY LIFE. My body reacted horribly. I nearly fainted and even the doctors weren’t sure wtf was happening to me and said they never saw someone react this way. After I stabilize and finally go home, I hop in the shower and I look down and my penis head is completely white and was not able to get an erection. From that day forward, life was never the same again. In an effort to keep this short, I list below the symptoms I suffered and the length of time:
Lack of blood in penis head causing it to look pale: Lasted several months and still slightly suffering from this but not as much as many years ago.
Sharp cold feeling and strong pain in the penis head: Lasted about half a year for nearly.. EVERY.. SINGLE.. DAY. A living hell.
Numbness and loss of all feeling (to the point where it felt like I literally did not have a penis): Has lasted All 4 years.. Still plagues me till this very day. It’s not as bad but its still extremely bad. To give you some context, I am able to grab a soap scrub (those soaps that hurt like fucking hell when your scrubbing your body) and basically DEMOLISH my penis and barley feel even anything at all.
No erection: this only lasted about 2 weeks I think but I’m going off of memory here.
Loss of erection quality: Still an issue today. My erections are not as hard or rigid and don’t point straight up like before. I did go through a period where after having an erection and ejaculating, my penis would stay so hard that it was painful (which is the opposite of what I just said but thought its worth mentioning). This pretty much subsided and even though my erections take longer to go down, it is nowhere near as hard as it used to be before that awful day at the doctors.
Feeling that I can’t empty bladder and can’t squeeze or push all urine out: still an issue today. My urine stream is weak.
Soft glands (to the point where my hard penis would hurt my glands If I would have sex): Lasted 2 and half years but I SOLVED this. I ACTUALLY SOLVED THIS, which was surprising. It was a combination of pills (shit you could get on amazon) that I took for about a week or so and the issue nearly vanished. The idea came from something a urologist mentioned during a visit. Soft glands issues are very much both physical and mental. I can elaborate more on this if necessary. I know one of the bottles was super ginkgo (a very specific one) and the other was Ashwagandha.
Flaccid state is now elongated: Not sure if this makes any sense, but after that horrible day, my penis became elongated (almost as if whatever was holding it in when flaccid gave up on holding it in and decided to let it all hang out). I basically grew about 2 inches on my flaccid penis within days (more or less.. Again, going by memory). While this may be desirable for nearly every man on earth, I think this is a symptom of some other problem that is perpetuating my issue.
Anyways, In the past 4 years I’ve seen plenty of urologist and have even gone to a pelvic floor physical therapist. ALL urologist literally dismissed my issues because “your able to establish an erection so this is all in your head”. That’s all they cared about.. Except for 1 urologist. He was SUPER skeptical but he decided to put my words to the test and gave me a penile doppler ultrasound.
HE WAS SHOCKED AT THE RESULTS!! He said that basically I am only getting about 30% of the blood I should be getting to my penis. 30 fucking PERCENT! He Legit had no idea what to tell but assured me “This is 100% NOT in your head.. There is an actual physical issue here.” The only recommendation he gave me was to do a procedure that would basically have me sedated after I take some blue dye that will highlight my blood for a certain machine. There, doctors would be able to see if there is something wrong with my arteries and may be the reason for the lack of blood supply to the penis.. That shit costs $10,000 and I simply do not have that kind of money, nor does my insurance cover it.
As for the pelvic floor physical therapist, I only went for two visits.. It was FAR too expensive $200-$300 a visit and required multiple visits a week for months and I felt they were holding back information since this was also not something that my insurance would cover and they wouldn’t want to give me the solution on day 1 or 2 then have me walk away.
So I am here again (for the 4th time) to ask for help. I’ve gone through A LOT of threads, have seen PLENTY of urologists, and I’m fairly confident that this is a pelvic floor issue. A few of the urologists I saw said this happened as a response to the medication because I didnt eat anything before taking the medication and caused my body to go into a fight or flight mode. When that happens, the blood gets allocated to other areas. I think that during that process of “fight or flight”, one of my pelvic muscles contracted in order to prevent blood from going to the penis and instead go elsewhere. However, it probably PERMANENTLY contracted and is now causing me hell on earth (I don’t think I need to explain the depression, emotional or mental insanity that comes with all of this. I think many of you might already know what this hell is like).
I would like to try taking a muscle relaxant to see if it helps. Please, if anyone has any info to help me out, I will legit owe you my life.
Last edited by WeAreOk : 04-25-2020 at .
