Hi bro, i also grew up without a dad. My parents divorced when I was born. My father verbally abused me when im with him. I can’t say i have much of a male role model either. I grew up in company of girls. Boys think im weird. But let’s get a few facts. Im married and have kids. My wife accepted me for who i am. She understands the trouble I’ve gone through. I think your spending so much time trying to prove you are a man, to somebody else, or to yourself. You have an idea of what is a man. Stop. You are a man! It’s not how you act, or your clothes, or your facial hair or your muscles. Those are desirable things but that doesn’t make you any more of a man. Those who don’t have isn’t any less of a man. I think you are hoping to land love while banging, but that’s not love. I believe we attract people we mirror. If you want attract quality people we also have to upgrade our selves. That means you got to look beyond the surface and become a person you want to attract. You have to shed some of that self interest, some of the vanity and have genuine interest of others. I know the feeling of sadness of not having someone, or of being alone, but it’s not catching fish that somebody might bite one day. It’s about self worth, those who genuinely discover it realizes they are beloved, regardless of having someone warm right next to them. Having a desire to love is genuine need. But it will take work, and heartache is ok.
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