I know this is a dead thread, but I don’t see any recent ones.
I tried “pushing” last September and I think I pushed too hard. Ended up having a lot of bladder pain for months, and now it’s physically more difficult for me to pee. I have to sit down at work now, it’s so difficult. Standing up in a stall is even worse than a urinal because it makes more noise, and therefore is much more noticeable. It used to work in high school, because cell phones weren’t allowed so I could just imagine I was in the stall using my cell phone to avoid having it confiscated, and if anyone thought I was weird: fuck you, I was using my phone, and why the fuck were you paying so much attention? .Now at work that doesn’t work so well.
Anyways, the weird thing is, it all depends to me on the likelihood of someone paying attention to me, whether or not I can go, and what the social/physical ramifications are if I can’t. I’ve had times where I’ve been in a bathroom with three urinals, and the two people next to me were talking to each other. As long as I can realize “ok, we’ve all been drinking, there’s noise, and they’re too engaged in their conversation to care if I’m going or not” I’ve been able to go without problems (or at least I could before last September).
I really want to try graduated exposure to get rid of this absolutely ridiculous problem. I’d be happy to whip my dick out and swing it around like a helicopter every time I go to a bathroom if that would let me evacuate my bladder properly. I dream of the day when I could walk into a bar and not give a fuck who else is in there—or more importantly, walk into the dead quite bathroom at my office, and not care if a VP is at the stall next to me and release with full pressure.