Hello everyone. I’m new to Thunder’s Place. I’m sorry if I offend anyone who is actually much smaller than average. I have possibly delusional ideas about my own penis size, and in my mind, I equate being in the low end of the “normal” flaccid length range as being very very small. This is my experience with PE:
I developed a lot of pubic hair at the age of 12, and I wasn’t ashamed of it - thought I was becoming a man. I had already become girl crazy. Then came a doctor’s checkup which ruined my self perception. The doctor said, “Don’t worry about it your penis not growing yet. It will catch up later in puberty. Secondary sexual characteristics sometimes develop at different times.” I will never forget that doctor’s visit. I actually hadn’t given my penis size a second thought until then. Probably about a year later, I had looked an a porno mag or two, which obviously further changed my perception. I kept waiting for my penis to grow, but never thought I experienced the “penis growth” stage of puberty. I thought my penis just grew a little in proportion to my body, but that I never experienced the development of this “secondary male sexual characteristic”.
I played baseball in high school, but I never showered with the guys in the locker room. In the later years of high school, I was humiliated by my teammates and my coach for refusing to shower. I didn’t have any friends at the end of high school. I measured my penis when I was about 15-16, and thought it was way too small, even though my erect size had been over 5 inches. My flaccid penis grows a lot (I’m an incredible grower). I asked my doctor if I could take testosterone because I might have testosterone deficit. He looked surprised and said no I don’t need it. I had my testosterone in my late teens tested, and it was in the average range.
When I was finishing high school, I think my penis was maybe 5.8 inches when erect, and my flaccid penis was normally about 2 - 2.5 inches which I found horribly humiliating. I thought my penis was half the length of many “average” 4 inch ones. The fact is, that when flaccid, my penis was, and still is, WAY smaller than some guys, especially when you consider penis size to be volume (if you account for girth). I didn’t believe in the “foreshadowing effect” influencing my perception here, because I could look in the mirror at my penis, at the same angles as other guys in the locker room. I was 6”, 190 lbs, pretty muscular, and I didn’t think that the “grower/shower” phenomena could account for my erect penis being that much larger to the extent that it was average.
I found “Tom Hubbard’s Practical Penis Enlargement” when I was 18 (9 years ago). I don’t know if some of the gains I measured were from the end of puberty. I also don’t know if some of the gains were in my head, from pressing the ruler in harder or just from getting a stronger erection. I guess that at one point I thought I was under 6”, and that after 4-5 months of weight hanging, I was over 6.25. But no one was talking about NBP/BP at this time. When I pressed the ruler extra hard, it could have been 6.5 inches or more. Unfortunately I developed devastating depression and a though disorder which interrupted my penis enlargement attempts.
Over the past several years I did a little weight hanging a couple times, but only for a month at a time, and a little jelqing or stretching now and then. Sometime I think that I did in fact gain that initial .5 inch from hanging, and even possibly another .5 inch from the brief jelqing or stretching that I’ve done over the years. But the uncertainty I experience is horrible. Sometimes I think that hanging weights didn’t do anything, or that it only increased my flaccid stretched. Or that I was a little under average erect and still am, and that I was way under average flaccid, and still am!
I only I lost my (actual) virginity this year at 27 years old in a one night stand. If it’s really possible, I’d like to have a true average flaccid penis size, and a true above average penis length. PE keeps getting back into my live, and taken time and concentration away from me, so I just want to achieve my goal and be done with it.
S: (5.5-6.9”) x (4.3-4.8”) “erect length”
C: I don’t know.. I’ll work on getting a real current
BPEL.. Which I think I’ll change to my starting size.
G: “high average” or “big”.. Another inch in length erect, although my girth is what eventually will need more work.