I HAD SEX WITHOUT AN ERECTION AID. FIRST TIME IN 16 YEARS
A little under three months and about 38 shockwave treatments later it finally happened. I was able to have sex without any kind of erection aid. It had been about 16 years since that happened. Prior to that time my love life was anything but spontaneous. While I should have been concentrating on enjoying the pleasure and connection with my wife, I was constantly wondering if whatever I had done to get an erection would work long enough to get the job done. Was I going to get there before my cock goes numb because of the ring I’d put on? Was the trimix injection well placed? Was I starting to get soft? If so, I’d have to jump of and say “Sorry Honey, just wait there a second, keep that state of arousal, don’t give up on me, I’ve just got to run and get the penis pump, set it up, and get a ring on so I can get back to you. Hopefully you haven’t got out of the mood, or fallen asleep before I can get it up again.”
All this worry and my internal dialog with myself was making it hard for me to relax and let it happen. (Am I going to get there before it wears off? What if we switch positions? I hope she’s not getting frustrated; we’ve been at it a while.) That led to many a session in which I just couldn’t get there. I know guys with premature ejaculation would be envious. Sometimes it meant that my wife had multiple orgasms, which is wonderful, but she’s told me that a huge part of her pleasure is being the source of mine, and sometimes I’d hump till I’d drop from exhaustion.
Viagra had stopped working a long time ago, spontaneous erections were non-existent, and morning wood was very occasional. Trimix was my last hope, but even with that, the doctor had been giving me stronger and stronger mixtures. I was up to .7cc injections and even those were wearing off before I was able to orgasm. Another thing is that each large injection is about $10 a pop, whether or not I pop or not. My wife has always been understanding and never said anything negative about me or my performance, but it sure made every lovemaking session more like an experiment in a lab to see what will work and what won’t. She did comment on that.
As far as how bad my ED is, the best way to say it is that without some kind of help, it’s not going to happen. That puts me on the severe end of the scale, 6/30 on the IIEF scale. The cause is a venous leak. I’ve got varicose veins that allow blood to flow back the wrong way, in this case out of my penis, rather than trapping it in where it is needed.
Now to the big question. What has changed compared to three months ago? Well I’ve tried Viagra a few times and it didn’t work well enough for penetration, so that is a negative. The small positive gains have been more morning wood, and a few weak, but spontaneous erections. My penis has noticeably changed a bit also. I’m not talking about improvements in size, which were not a goal to begin with. However, there is some good evidence that the blood flow is improved. First of all, when limp is it longer than it used to be when limp. Second, when I create an erection in the vacuum pump, it used to take a lot more time and pumping to get it to full mast. It hardly takes much to draw in blood, which must mean there are more veins, or at least their capacity has been expanded. I also think I see some surface veins that didn’t used to be there, but I can’t be sure since I don’t have before pictures.
The best thing was that last night my wife crawled into bed, found I had a night erection and woke me up to take advantage of it. It was only a #3 hardness on the scale of 0-4, but it was sufficient. I was actually surprised it lasted long enough to get ‘er done. I figured as some point I’d have to get it up by artificial means to continue, but that didn’t happen. A few days before I’d got a #3 stiffy from a bit of cuddling.
One other significant improvement is the last month or so is that I only need .2 CC injections of trimix instead of 7+. That small amount gets me plenty hard for plenty long. A10cc bottle is now good for 50 sessions rather than 14. Shockwave has improved the blood flow considerably. During lovemaking I’m focused on that not on whether my erection will last. It usually stays plump quite a while after it’s needed.
Just because the plumbing worked once without medication doesn’t mean I’m cured. I believe that I will still need trimix. The question I now grapple with is whether there any possibility that continued treatments may actually cure my venous leak. Will I get to the point that I no longer need trimix for good? The medical literature is silent on the matter, since I’ve never seen a study that is carried out for such a long period of time with so many treatments. The studies do show that men need booster treatments after a while to continue to get the benefits that shockwave therapy initially gave them. At this point, I’ve suffered no ill effects, irritation, or anything else that would signal that I may be taking it too far, so I will continue to treat. I suppose that I’m setting myself up as a test case for whether a man with severe ED caused by a venous leak can eventually get erections without some outside support.
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