Big Girtha, Great Post. I always find your input and stories a great source of inspiration. I myself am a “grower” - almost of a freakish nature. I was 6x5.5 and through my non-hard core PE’ing have hit 6.5x5.75. Flaccid and cold my unit is almost embarrassing, you would think I would have a 2.5” boner when erect.
I recently went through a divorce, relocated to the Orlando area from NY and have started on the process of reinventing myself. I originally started PE’ing back a few years when I was married, shared my story here, eventually got in trouble for checking out the poon on this site, quit out of the desire to make my ex happy, and then the bitch eventually dumped me for some ugly redneck fuck whom was a member of “her” church. That’s a good story for LLF, and I’ll get into it someday.
Met a chick down here, a few years older than me, and very uninhibited sexually. She’s had many more partners than me, and is more interested in the girth than length. One of her exes was long but thin, she kind of said, “I had always wished I could fold it in half and double the thickness.” She enjoys the shape of my unit, and I frequently get her to squirt, which she claims is a rare occurrence. ( I’ll take it, but still kind of skeptical ). She knows about my PE - claims I don’t need it, but is still upbeat and encouraging nonetheless. I told her my goal was 8x6.5 ( I still want good blow-jobs ), held up a can of Edge Gel shaving cream, and just got a set of raised eyebrows. I just returned with, “You’ve done it before, I’m sure you can handle it again…” and smiled.
BG, you talk about 1st impressions with the flaccid, and I couldn’t agree more. I had come off a 3 month stretch of post-divorce depression, don’t even think I had a conscious hard-on, and was turtled beyond belief the 1st time I hopped into bed with a new partner. Had a difficult time even getting hard, was nervous, but after a little coaxing, my new chick finally brought junior out, and I’ll never forget the look on her face when she said, “That’s amazing, I never expected that….”
With my new found sexual partner, my stretching and jelqing and a 3x weekly dose of Tadafil, I’m sporting a much better flaccid, but I have my moments where I turtle and I’m adamant about fighting that. I’m working on the rest of my body, and am still in pretty good fighting shape at 6’4” and 210lbs. My goal is to be “nudist camp” material someday, where I have the confidence to actually go.
If you knew the entire story of my marriage of 16 years, this would be a huge achievement for me, and I want to do it. I’m sure Miss Prissy Pants whom made my life impossible with her controlling demands would have a knee jerk reaction to it, but maybe that’s what I want. I still have the desire to have her regret “what she threw away”, and maybe I’ll grow out of that eventually as my wounds heal - but in the meantime, it’s all about me, what I want, and the confidence I’ll gain from it.
BG, if you’re up for any mentoring, I’d be an avid pupil. And if not, I’ll always appreciate your contributions to the “craft”, your skillful writing style and the adventures you share with us. Thanks. :)