Back after a long lay off.

That does not sound too good because she is not accepting that you have natural desires.

That talk with her probably has not yet ended.

Okay guys. I know a few of you are following this thread, so here’s an update from last night.

My wife was working very late, so I had a lot of time to do some PE while she was at work. It was a good session. Did about 150 jelq’s at between 90% and 60% erect level with an adapted horse squeeze after every 50 jelqs while 100% erect. (Not recommended to newbie. Only for more experienced PE’ers). I loved the engorged feeling I was getting from the squeezes and combined with the jelqing, was making my dick nice and fat and it felt a bit longer, but can’t be sure. I did not do my stretches during the day, to help my EQ get back a bit, and it worked. Had good erections during the session. After my session and during the warm down, I tried to stay erect for as long as possible with edging, but when I was done I let it go down. It stayed engorged for a while, which is a real good sign that I had a great session.

After that it was a normal evening. My wife eventually got home just in time to put our daughter to bed. And we talked about our day and everything. Then I started looking for the nail clippers as it was overdue for a trimming. She proceeds to lead me to the bedroom. I thought it was weird, but didn’t think much of it. Turn out she keeps the clippers in the room. And she proceeds to trim my nails. I told her I didn’t want her to work (she does nails for a living) extra hard and I can do it myself, but she refuses telling me that doing stuff like this for me isn’t work to her. It was really sweet. When things are difficult, the small things really means a lot. After my finger nails she whips my shoes off and clips my toe nails. I told her that’s not necessary but she isn’t hearing anything. So there we are. Me on the bed and her on the floor clipping my toe nails, and we’re just talking about life and stuff. It was nice. After she was done, I help her up from the floor, (my muscles were hurting from hitting the gym again this week for the first time in over a year) and as I helped her up I just sort of fall back onto the bed, just lying there trying to figure out if the pain was worth trying to get up again. And then it happens.

She proceeds to straddle me. Of course this sends a jolt of electricity through my entire body straight to my dick telling him get ready buddy, this might just be your lucky day, but I know nothing is going to happen because she is on her shark week. (Not that blood bothers me. I use to be a professional hunter and Game Ranch Manager. I’m use to having blood on me. But it bothers her.) So there I’m lying with my wife straddling me on the bed try to convince my dick its no use getting hard. Kind of awkward I know. I ask her what she is doing. She replies with “nothing” in that naughty innocent voice of hers. I say “this isn’t helping” and she replies “isn’t helping with what?” I say my hornyness. She looks at me with that big eye in that one look we know in our women. She replies, “well maybe that’s the point”. Now everything primal about being a man kicks in. Now my body is going off “This is code green. Code green guy all systems are go. Big brain, you’re no longer needed, all reserve blood head south.” I feel I’m getting harder and harder. And I tell her, don’t play with me, you know how I get when you play around. She doesn’t even respond to this. she bends over and kisses me, sending new fireworks off through my whole body, and then sits back up and press her hand in underneath my shorts and heads straight toward my dick and starts rubbing it. By this time my brain is deprived of oxygen so I’m not thinking straight, can’t concentrate much and I just feel my dick is really freaking hard. Its been almost three months and my body was going in overdrive. I remember her saying something about my dick feeling different, but at this stage my concentration was nowhere. We kissed some more and now I know she is teasing me. Making me wait just a little longer. Eventually she gets up and goes to the toilet. This little break gives me a chance to get some oxygen back to my brain, but not long. She is getting undressed and removing her tampon and stuff. And of course I got undressed in a heart beat. With soldier at the ready. She come back, and by now we both can’t wait. Screw foreplay. We’re diving straight in, and then, damn forgot the lube in the bathroom. So I go to fetch it but I’m back in heart beat. So we’re naked on the bed, lubed up and all I want to do is storm the castle, but I know I can’t do that, so its a slow and gentle process trying to just get in. Pain was rather a factor with this. She kicked me away a few times and I can see by the expression on her face, this is hurting, but we soldier on. She commented a few times she feels like she is a virgin again. After about 5 minutes of trying, I’m in, but I know I have to go slow. She doesn’t know I’ve started PE’ing again, but the expression on her face said that I was reaching places I haven’t before or in a long while at least. She feels super tight, so slow for now until she gets use to my new size. (Obviously I must have gained somewhere. Everytime we struggle like this its when I’ve gained, so experience tells me its obvious even though I’m not seeing it) After about 7-10 minutes I can feel she has adapted and her face also says she is enjoying it more. So I start to up the rhythm until we reach that sweet spot where she is just going crazy, moaning like a porn star. And I feel her contracting around my dick in orgasm but that’s just the tipping point and I lost control and cum as well. I wanted it to last a little longer but I just couldn’t hold out any more. But still, it was a fun evening. And the three month dry spell is finally over.

I want to thank all you guys here for the help and encouragement you have gave me. The journey is definitely not over and there is still a long road to travel, but you made the burden a lot lighter. The look of bliss was fantastic to see after we were done, and the scratch marks on my back says she really enjoyed that. But still don’t know when it will happen again. But here’s to hoping it won’t be too long

Good man is all I can think to say. Very happy for you!

That’s excellent! Congrats on all accounts!

Thanks guys. Was great to get there again. Felt really good.

Just awesome PTW! After the road you’ve been down, what a moment like that means to you is probably near indescribable. So glad for both of you!!!

Track records are pesky and make us guard hopes & expectations to protect ourselves but hoping you can release the pain & fears and just let go and enjoy what is hopefully the start of something….

Thanks, I’m also hoping it will get back to normal again. But I do understand that there are still some problems lingering like the broken back and stuff, but hey. It didn’t hinder anything last night. Just have to keep it slow.

Guys. I think she is trying to make up for lost time. We took a bath last night together. And she couldn’t even wait to get out of the bath. Not that I am complaining. It wasn’t the most satisfactory sex, but it felt absolutely awesome to be craved that badly. She asked me to ”do what I do to get her in the mood” but I said I can’t as that involves my mouth and her bits are under water. She said ”no. The other way.” Meaning my fingers. And opens her legs wide for me. I didn’t need a second invitation. I know exactly how to get her off using my fingers. Even though, because of the agle, I couldn’t get as deep as I wanted to. But it didn’t take long till she was cumming hard. I was loving it. Then she got on top of me and drained the tub. Lets just say we both were dry when we got out. Another great night. Now I have to shave my beard. Haha. I told her I would shave when we have a sex life again, and boy, is it back. Loving it. Thanks again for the help while things were difficult.

On a side note. Have any of you experienced a sexual encounter that was almost as a jelqing session because the lady was just that tight? Or something?

Dude!

Nothing new to add on the relationship part today. Over the weekend I think the gym during the week caught up to me, because I went to bed damn early every night. Long before she was ready, and by the time she came to bed I was fast asleep.

I did notice something on the PE front though. Sunday morning I was in the bath. Sometimes in the bath I will do light stretches, and Sunday I did the same, but I noticed something. While stretching it downward, my arm was a little too “short” to do a proper stretch, and that I had to reposition my upper body (just slightly) to do a proper stretch. This, in my mind at least, means I have gained even if it is only slightly. But its been only a month, and way too soon to really say. And my ruler only goes to 20cm/8 inches, so it won’t help to try and measure. So just a question. Have any of you seen gains within the first month of getting back into PE, or is my mind just playing tricks on me?

Ok. A month back at PE. My dick looks huge some days and then normal on other days. Guess its all about EQ. I’ve discovered the best route to more gains would be to split my PE in two. So I’m doing a stretching routine 1 day on and 2 days off. (EQ goes down the drain when I stretch too often so doing it like this helps with that.) And I’m doing a 200 jelq with adaptive horse squeezes in between every 50 sets. This one I’m doing 5 days on 2 days off. Its really good for EQ and I swear I’m seeing gains already (I know its too early) but I can’t measure because the ruler I have only goes to 20cm and I need to buy a new one first before I can measure properly, but I need a good excuse to buy one. Wife doesn’t know I am back with PE and something like this might make her suspicious.

On the sex front things are really getting good and back to normal. Two days ago we went at it again, and I needed a lot of foreplay to prepare her. I don’t mind. I love foreplay. But as I eased into her she kept stopping me from going to deep, but when I could go balls deep she sort of moaned like when you have eaten to much. But just that was enough to make her cum, hard. Felt good to know you have the dick power to do that. And just going all in makes her feel those levels of pleasure.

Here’s to gaining some more length and girth. I will be experimenting with other things in future. And I will keep this thread going. But will post some pics in another thread to inspire others.

To respond to the question about seeing growth after just one month back, me and you happen to be in the same boat. Only I actually have a 12 in ruler lol. Yes I have noticed 1/4 inch length gain in just under a month doing a very light but extremely concentrated routine. And as for the amazing bonding you and the wife have been doing, a million congratulations. Gosh must feel amazing, and here’s to both speedy gains and fast recoveries

Thanks. Yea its great. We have also done a course recently on relationships. We are in a good spot at the moment. So things are good. Just have to keep it that way.

An update for the guys following this thread. We recently did a course on relationships. It was a good course and it helped us both. Opened a few unhealed wounds, but it was good and we learned a lot from it. We are in a good place. Sex is still sporadic, but getting better. Our relationship as a whole is better though.
Next year she want to do a course on “finding yourself”. I think it will be very good for her because she always run around trying to please everybody instead of pleasing herself and the people that are important in her life. Sometimes she will even start a fight with me just to please somebody else.

On the PE front things are good. Have a new routine and it is going good. I sometimes still struggle to find the time to get to PE, but I do get around to it.

Update. Don’t think anybody is still following this thread, but I just feel like I want to put this in black and white. My PE and stuff are on different threads, so I won’t go on about all that over here. My wife and I are on better terms recently, although today I am in a bad mood because of various factors. And when she made me late for work, I sort of just burst out toward her. But hey, life also happens. (Don’t worry, not physically. I would never get physical. Was just words. Like my father always said. Corridor sex. One stand at one end of the corridor and the other at the other end of the corridor and they scream fuck you fuck you at each other. Lol.)

She also had an appointment with her gynecologist today. With all her medical stuff going on, he recommends that she gets a hysterectomy. But they will leave her ovaries in tact so she doesn’t have to get hormonal treatment. Because we are still a young couple, we have thought about having more children, so e asked about freezing eggs so we might in future maybe get a surrogate. Apparently this is too dangerous because of the hormones they need to inject her with to release the eggs will be life threatening to her with the other medical issues. So we are out of options. Adoption is not an option for a white couple in my backward ass country.

So its official. I will never have a son. At least we do have our daughter, which is already a miracle. We will see how things go from here. Its a bit of a blow to me today. I knew the dr. would suggest a hysterectomy, but was hoping that at least we could freeze some eggs.