Hi guys, here I am again!
I’m still blocking thunders, but I can access it through my workstation. Impossible to see any kind of pictures here, so, no porn, but it’s ok to read and write some posts.
I have some updates and some tips for all the guys struggling with addiction.
I’ve been without porn for 13 days now. It’s the second time I have a period this long. And right now, no masturbation for 5 days.
It doesn’t look much, but for me it’s an accomplishment.
I’m getting to this point where the brain tries to overcome my willpower, the abstinence crisis. It’s when I go to porn and give it what it needs. But this time, I’m feeling stronger.
The abstinence crisis comes in a form of depression, lack of confidence. I feel like I’m a fraud, I feel like I have the shortest dick, I feel like I can’t achieve anything in my life … This is my brain hurting me as much as possible, so I finally give him what he wants. Lots of dopamine through masturbation.
This is the struggle. This is the most difficult part of the fight.
I’m taking meds for depression and it helps a lot. I still feel all these bad things pulling me down, but it’s easier to fight back. Every winning day is a day to celebrate.
About my recovery, my ED was so severe that even drugs like Viagra, Cialis, Levitra … wasn’t working. Now, I can have sex with my girlfriend. Sometimes I get a morning wood and I’m starting to have spontaneous erections during the day. Without drugs, my EQ still low. 4/10, sometimes 7/10. Using meds, it’s up to 11/10 for at least 30min, backing to 8/10 for almost two hours. Sex is great again.
Hope to keep winning today. Everyday is a new battle.
If you are struggling with addiction, find your self a psychiatrist. There are lots of medications that help and every help matters. But remember, this is your fight. The medication won’t fight it for you.
Abstinence crisis is cyclical. They come and go and they can last for more than a day. Being strong is a huge challenge, but never lose hope. Even when you fail.
I have a whole new routine to help me. Waking as soon as possible, going to gym before 6am, choosing better food, trying to be with more people around me, and focusing on helping people. Helping others is something very powerful. Your problems really decrease when you realize that you are not alone and that there are much worse and better things in life.
The process is slow, and we need time. Healing is real. Just keep fighting
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