Havent checked in here for a while..
I had the firm flaccid really bad for a couple weeks.. I was totally messed up with anxiety.. Which wasn’t healthy.. I was afriad my penis would never get hard again..
Then after a couple weeks of leaving it a lot.. It suddenly started working better again (erections)..
Now I’ve reached a state where I can get good erections pretty normally.. And my penis very rarely feels firm flaccid..
However, there has been a change .. It’s not quite like it used to be, and I’m not sure if it ever will be to be honest. It feels harder when I Get an erection, not necessarily in a good way, more like it’s actually hard like a piece of wood.. Thers also maybe slightly less sensation, and the glans doesnt get quite as plump as it once did.. Also noticed maybe a very small decrease in overall length. Which of course is hard to accept.. But it’s so minor it truly makes no difference.
None the less. I am happy to have a functional penis again. It’s not 100% where I want it to be, but I can live with this.. I would have had a hard time living with it in it’s original state.
I have noticed though, that when I go through a period of stress, anxiety or physical stress it can bring back the hard flaccid somewhat.. Luckily it only lasts a short time normally.
This means to me there is some connection with stress/anxiety and hormones/neurotransmitters.. Then again, it could just be the penis shrinking up normally, as it always has, during times of stress.. Yet it feels firmer/harder because thers a layer of fibrous tissue covering the penis that wasn’t there before.. This is also a good possibility to me.. If anything it may be both of them combined.. Some type of change in the tissue of the penis + stress hormones.
I believe everyone can reach a satisfactory state of functioning.. Hard to say whether things can ever go back 100% to the way they were before. We will keep trying, but it’s best to try and accept things sometimes.. Otherwise life just becomes a nightmare.