Instead you’re confirming what I wrote. Reflect. After 20 pulls you saw a instantaneous damage in your penis. Instantaneous. Even if you had really done athe worst arterio-venous damage, which is highly unlikely in this way, and given the incredible elasticity of erectile tissue, it would have to spend a few hours, a few days to get to that point, you should have had a hematoma, intense pain. Instantaneous and sudden changes such as those you describe may be due ONLY to psychogenic causes, such as a concern even unconscious that, yes, may very well produce an effect of shrinking like the one you describe. Has it ever happened that you were masturbating and being discovered by parents or your grandmother? Even there, the penis retracts instantly, but does not mean you have picked an injury. The unfounded fear to have procured yourself irreparable damage can produce the same effect. And if the fear is reinforced by insecurities and problems that you already had with the girl or others, may exaggerate the effects. Then you started documenting yourself in a wrong way, looking for similar allegations and have started to scare seriously. It ‘simple.
I’m not questioning your ability to get excited before, also because it has nothing to do in this case. Does not mean that you can be an anxious person. But it is a good thing, it means that you will recover very soon.
You say that your penis is retracted for 80% of the time. Maybe because you’re worried about that 80% of the time? And the remaining 20% ? If it was a real damage that would be all the time.
And once again, you’re wrong when you say that medicine can not explain a lot of things. Be sure that the medicine today, performed by a decent doctor, is able to explain almost everything, at least can’t find a remedy for everithing.
If a man dies in sleep after bumping his head, it is not mystery, but because he had an aneurysm, or atherosclerosis, which predisposed him to the stroke.
If a guy runs on a straight way and broke a ligament that’s because he forced too much in the days before, or had a distortion poorly managed.
In your case medicine can’t even find the pathological (organic) element, that means that there is not. You are healthy. Remedy sarts from the cure of the cause.
Have you run a dynamic penile eco-color doppler? Its the best diagnosis today, so you remove any doubt. If the result is again negative, it means that you stay great and you just have to run other type of therapy, it’s very common today. Pull out your false belief. Remember, love is a close relative of the relaxation, you can say to be really realaxed when thinking about sex? Best regards.