It was May, and I was 11. Sitting on the toilet I got a hard-on. I’d gotten really hard before then, even had some nights when I was SO horny I tried to make a fake vagina out of a Kleenex box, but it didn’t work. I’d stay awake for hours with a painful erection that wouldn’t go down no matter what. I had never heard of masturbation. What can I say? I was naive. I would get this clear, sticky fluid that oozed from my penis and I thought that was sperm and that was all there ever would be. I had no idea that there was anything else. I had gotten some hair around my cock but thought I wouldn’t get as hairy as my father until I was in my 20s or 30s. I didn’t know that I’d get hair anywhere else! My father never spoke to me about puberty, until I was 16 and then he only muttered something along the lines of, “…..and mumble mumble get hair— mumble mumble— on your balls.” :rolleyes:
So I was sitting there one afternoon with another frustrating hard-on and decided to try making a fake vagina out of toilet paper. So I just started wrapping my dick in toilet paper! Pretty soon I had the whole thing wrapped-up like a mummy and I tried fucking it. At first it was pretty rough and hurt but I produce a LOT of precum so I kinda lubed it up. Before this I thought that if a guy did this in a vagina it would somehow make him feel better and make the erection go down. So I kept going in and out and all of a sudden it was soft and moist enough and I couldn’t stop!! I had to keep going! And then, with one giant spasm my ass FLEW off the toilet seat and I landed on my knees, on the floor, holding myself up against the hamper, with my hips uncontrollably thrusting into this wad of toilet paper I was holding in my hand, breathing like I’d just had a heart attack. I felt this huge rush of liquid go through my penis and the toilet paper suddenly get wetter— a LOT wetter!
“Oh my God, I’ve peed!” It felt great but I thought this couldn’t be right. I quickly flushed the wad of toilet paper and looked at my red, raw, pulsing penis slowly deflate. I saw no sign of semen so I thought it really was urine. I washed my dick in the sink and ran back to my room feeling very strange, wondering why peeing would feel so good and why it seems guys are supposed to pee into a vagina.
So later that night I quietly snatched just about every towel from the hall closet and thought I’d watch the process. I laid down on my bed with about 12 towels all around me and waited for my penis to start releasing sperm. A few drops of the clear stuff appeared on my head then it started running down my penis. So I took one of the towels and started fucking it but my penis was still too raw. But I noticed that if I moved the skin up and down (I’m fairly loosely cut), that it felt just as good. So I did that a few times and felt the rush again, and a spasm, and this WHITE STUFF FLEW OUT OF MY DICK!!! and plopped on my chest!! :eek: WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT??? Is it sperm? What is it? If that’s sperm then what’s the clear stuff? I felt it, smelled it, tasted it, then wiped it up with one towel I quickly jammed in my bedstand drawer and then put on my pajamas and sneaked the towels back into the closet before my mother missed them. I was really worried but I didn’t dare ask my parents about it but then realized that it felt good and not too much came out and it relieved the erections so I just kept doing it, fucking a towel because that felt best. What’s worse though is that it started to rub the inner skin remnant raw and since that bunched-up behind my glans, I got an infection that started itching something terrible. I tried using Bactine on it but DEAR GOD NEVER USE BACTINE ON YOUR PENIS!!!!! I had to wash it in the sink under running water just to stand the pain with my mother knocking on the door, “Are you alright dear? Why are you running the water so much? Are you sick?”
“No! I’m fine!”
“Well why are you running so much water??”
“I…. uh….. cut myself!”
“Oh. Are you bleeding much? Do you want me to look at it?”
“NO! NO! I’m fine, really. I’m fine.”
“Well be sure to put a band-aid on it and don’t forget to spray it with Bactine.”
“Wha!?!! Yes mother!” :mad: :mad:
So I grabbed a band-aid from the cabinet and put it on my finger. When I got out my mother wanted to look at it but I persuaded her that I did use Bactine (just not where I used it), and I didn’t want to take the band-aid off. My penis though, was a mess. The inner skin was all red and raw and the itching was unreal. Going to school was the worst because I couldn’t scratch it or do anything until I thought somebody wasn’t looking. In any event, jacking-off was completely impossible due to this injury which only added to the frustration of it. The infection continued for nearly a month, accompanied with skin flaking from the stretch marks on my penis as it seemed all this business had caused my penis to start shedding skin! :eek: What had I done?! Now my penis was in REAL trouble and I was sorry I had ever done anything at all. I couldn’t ask my father about this at all, and certainly never my mother. I needed….. a doctor. So, with every ounce of courage and about $10 in my pocket, I got on my bike and went to the doctor’s office. I put my bike on the porch of the office and walked in quietly, without looking at anybody, and I went up to the receptionist… A WOMAN! %-\ I hadn’t figured on this! She’ll ask me what’s wrong!! Ohshitohfuckohshitohfuck. So I gather-up my courage and tell her I need to see the doctor now. She asks if I have an appointment. I say no. She asks where my parents are. I told her they don’t know I’m here, I came before I could tell them. Well what do I want to see the doctor for? Because I’ve done something to myself. What did you do? …….. At that point I just exploded. The tension was unreal. I was scared, I was in pain, and here I was dealing with the Grand Inquisitor only without the comfy chair. So I just….. well….. :bawl: I cried. I just kept saying, “Please let me see him!,” over and over. Fortunately, the receptionist felt bad for me and told me to go sit down. I did and couldn’t begin to look at anyone else in the office. They all knew. They all knew. That little girl, that boy over there, all those ladies knew: my penis was badly damaged and I had done it to myself. I might as well have been sitting there naked. I was sniffling and such what seemed for hours but it was only for a few minutes until the doctor came to the door and told me to come in. I had seen this doctor since I was very little and he was a nice man and I immediately felt better. I told him what I had done and he had me drop my pants. I wasn’t embarrassed really because I knew he could fix it. He didn’t scold me or anything, just pulled the skin back a few times and explained that the stretch marks weren’t because of redness. He asked me if I was masturbating. Masturbating?? What is that? He explained. Oh :o . Well yeah, I guess I was. He just smiled and laughed a little and said it was OK. He gave me a handful of sample-sizes of some creme and immediately I put it on I felt wonderful, cooling, delightful, R-E-L-I-E-F. It was wonderful. He told me to apply it a few times a day and after bathing and that it would clear-up everything in a few days. He also went on to explain what was going on and why. We talked for a good 20 minutes about puberty, about semen, about pre-ejaculatory fluid, and why rubbing your dick on harsh materials was a bad idea. Hehe. I offered him my $10. but he refused it and told me to see him in a week and he’d check things out. He did say he’d have to tell my parents that I’d been there but he did promise to not say exactly why. I biked home, very relieved, very happy, and with a pocketful of this wonderful soothing creme.
Later that night I realize the doctor must have called my mother because I heard my parents arguing in the kitchen. I didn’t hear my father say much but my mother was half shouting, “Haven’t you told him anything yet? Why haven’t you spoken to him about this?,” and I heard my father again muttering that he would, blah blah blah. He never spoke to me about anything until that time when I was 16 and by then it was all WAY too late, I’d already lost a few types of virginity by then. My mother took me back to the doctor the following week and the doctor and I talked about a few other things I thought of, like body hair and voices and oily skin and all that. To her immense credit my mother lied through her teeth, “The doctor called and said you’d been to his office. I don’t know why but I’m to bring you back the next week.” On the drive to the doctor my mother feigned complete ignorance and I was very happy with that. By then my penis was healing just fine and I didn’t hate it nearly as much as I did before. In fact, we started getting along just fine, having enjoyed a long, sometimes frustrating, but usually wonderful relationship. :D On the drive home all my mother asked was, “Is everything alright?,” I said yes it was, and she left it at that then drove to the ice cream parlor where she treated me to a sundae of anything I wanted on it. She didn’t ask anything else and we talked about school and friends and other things.
Sometimes moms can be very :cool: