Sharing recent porn induced ed issues

Yeah, recently slipped on this. Starting up tomorrow. Porn is in the past. Focus on real life sexual simulation.

UPDATE: My balls are huge! Lol jokes aside I seem to be feeling My libido more in the morning. Still having amazing morning wood. Have plans this weekend, we’ll see how it goes.

One thing that can work to bring sensitivity back to your penis and stir the sensual feelings inside is to be completely alone and just focus on you touching yourself, all over, not just your genitals, and breathing. Don’t concentrate more on breathing than touching, let them combine to be the same thing. Caress your inner thigh, for instance, and breathe in as you do, then change direction and breathe out. If thoughts of anything come into your mind, leave your body and imagine seeing yourself lying there, touching yourself and breathing soundly and calmly. Think about breathing. This helps tremendously. As you feel ready slowly touch your genitals. Really appreciate the feeling of the skin and your hair (if you have hair and don’t shave lol). Pull and tug, tease and tickle. Rub your torso and chest, nipples and neck. Charge your body and think of the sensations as you breathe. If you get an erection, pleasure it slowly and marvel at it. Cherish it. Build up your inner pleasure and energy and send it out of your penis like a chute or funnel; send it into the sky and further as you breathe out. Then imagine it falling back down into you as breathe in and let it fill your whole body; inflate your soul with your sexual pleasure and sensations.

I learned some of this from Margo Anand’s (sp.) books on Sex Magic and related topics. I, too, have been on a no porn journey and finding arousal by myself and not in a screen was hard at first (I posted in another thread here) but I was freaking out because I thought I couldn’t get hard alone without porn. I felt like I NEEDED it even though I can get hard by just touching myself and looking at a wall. Its the expectations of whatever that I think makes ED happen when we least want it to; that expectation that we NEED a boner NOW and if we don’t get it now its gone forever. I’ve been very hard in the past while on porn. I’ve been off porn almost 6 weeks and somehow, its hard to describe or explain, but my erections feel harder, fuller, wider and stronger. I haven’t changed much by way of diet, supplements (maybe added magnesium and vit E that’s it) or exercise. I just feel all around better without porn and my erections are great now. I panicked a few times trying to masturbate and orgasm without porn. It was hard at first but now its super fun.

Try to charge your body and genitals through breathing and light mindfulness practice (or meditation). It might work wonders for you and your confidence! It certainly makes you feel alive in new ways.

UPDATE: So today I have been having random boners. My lord my mind is actually recovering from porn. Its like my imagination is returning to me. I caught myself lost in a fantasy about this girl I met recently and lo and behold, I was hard. I think my ed anxiety when with a girl might be gone now. Only one way to find out.

Thanks bro, I do need to work on self love. Definitely need to meditate with breathing exercises

I am so happy to see brothers recovering form porn. It is really really bad for mental health. It is just like any drug. If you are snorting the same little bit of cocaine for a long time, the body build tolerance and suddenly that same little bit is not enough. So you start using a little bit more. And after a while a little bit more. And more, and more to the point life is lost to drug and addiction.

Porn is the same. And that is the reason why there are so many categories of porn, from soft innocent erotic media, to horrific atrocities such as defecating, something that is not even sex anymore, but a twisted pervert mind depleted of “normalcy” I guess reaches that point. And of course, a mind addicted to porn cannot function properly in real life with a real woman.

In reality, you dont even need to “feel” per se the recovery from porn. However, after some time, the moment you are engaging with a real woman in real life, you’ll feel that huge rush of blood going down there and all your sense preparing for coitus. Nothing more beautiful than that.

Bro your posts mean so much to me. I seem to be breaking out of the mold the world has set for me. I’ve never experienced multiple women coming up to me and openly flirting with me before (Let alone ONE! ). Now every time I go out people seem so responsive and glad to see me. I seem to be becoming my real self and I keep experiencing people trying to knock me down. Your other post on this thread about forgiveness has really helped me not to hate them and fall back into my old ways. I was feeling a lot of shame today for being caught checking out this girls ass because she had a man passive aggressively tell me no to the service I ordered (Didn’t pay yet). It wasn’t until I left that realized why the girl was laughing in the back. Lol I get it, don’t stare but give me the courtesy of Just saying it directly. I WAS feeling shame but as I pondered I realized that I’m going to fail before I get better at life in general.

I refuse to be put in a box anymore, I love life and all the people in it.

Thats the way to go my friend. Just ignore negativity. Do not fall for it. let it slide. And I can sense you are very young, you have a whole life and world to discover ahead of you. You can accomplish literally anything that you commit to. Start from the base that all of us, humans, are created equal. We are all the same. Therefore whatever another human has accomplished in life, you can too. And perhaps even more. And if you are a fellow American brother, love this nation with all your passion and defend its constitution with your life, because this nation more than any other nation in the world has given so much to its people in terms of opportunities, freedom and liberty, equality.

Just when you think you’ve got it mastered, you slide again. Tonight, spent 45 minutes on a rapidly escalating porn jaunt. Had been doing pretty well. It’s a neverending fight

This is so fcking true… it has been months i have not watched porn and this morning i just stumbled upon some hentai, searched and watched some shit for 1 hour without even touching myself just because it made my heart beat pumping.
Porn is a damn nightmare…now my mind is full of these crap.
weaning takes years
even if you just eat a little too much sugar or find yourself alone, the urge returns from hell where you had thrown it !!
damn…

I’m still on a no-porn habit and it feels great. I did not have an orgasm/ejaculation for the last 7 days, mainly because I only wanted to be with my wife: if I was going to cum, it was going to be with her, regardless of what sex act we were going to do. I’m a big “7 day wait” believer, I’ve had the most amazing, huge orgasms and ejaculations on day 7. I’ve been doing these 7 day cum explosion things for like the last 5 years now, not often but a few a year at least. All of them have been amazing and worth trying again. But the last 3 had been horrific. The first was amazing until my wife made me use her pussy to finally cum and she wasn’t ready (due to menopause) and I lost all pleasurable sensation and lost wood at the moment of finality and came a lot but I was soft. The next one I was alone and at the moment of truth—I was finally going to get hard and cum!!—I couldn’t get hard. I was in a panic. Why was I freaked out? Because the last one was ruined and did not end as planned?

The third and last bad one in a row I was on a solo vacation and had a cabin in the mountains to myself. Big plans for many Os and cums for two days and nights!!! When I got there I was so full of energy and excitement I couldn’t wait to cum. But, when I got down to it, I was soft as a wet noodle. I couldn’t get it up, I couldn’t get aroused, it didn’t feel good, and I wound up pumping into my fleshlight and when I pulled out my flaccid released a lot of cum, but it was extremely underwhelming. I didn’t know what was going on.

But now I do. I was watching porn like crazy all 7 days, whenever I could, and edging and playing and getting hard to it. I figured “when my 7 day break is over I’m gonna explode and it’ll be awesome!” The second time I described above, when I was alone, I didn’t have porn on. I thought I could just get hard, fuck my fleshlight, and spray. At the cabin, I didn’t have porn on, I didn’t think I needed it. I came two more times that first night at the cabin and each time I had porn on, and it worked. Like a charm.

Like the evil venom charm it is.

So, last night, I feared I might have a 4-time repeat of a spoiled orgasm and ejaculation. Pair the ruined past experiences with my stress of trying to have sex with my wife again now that she’s finally getting her menopause under control (it took a year and a half but she’s back!) and I feared I might not be able to get hard and have sex with her because it hasn’t been easy to perform. Its because I was on porn non stop when I pleasured myself, alone, for a year and a half and I didn’t realize what it was doing to me. I used to mix porn infrequently in years past because my wife and I had sex nearly every day of the month, for years and years.

The thing that changed last night, and the last 7 days, was that I didn’t look at one lick of porn at all. And I wasn’t edging or getting hard during the day during this break week. I was so motivated to do all kinds of work and chores and old projects. I had no burden of expectation for day 7. I didn’t plan for a 7 day break, its just that my wife was too tired and we were too busy to have sex on days 4-6, so when we finally could do it, it happened to be day 7.

Last night, I freaked out in the shower about an hour before we were intimate. I didn’t think I could pull it off, I thought my body would fail me yet again. But when we were together, the blood flow! My god the blood surging into my pelvis and the tingling of my skin all around my groin and thighs was insane. I got her off a whole lot several times and then she gave me head. I hadn’t felt lube or jerked off once in 7 days so the sensation, well it was too much. I started to get hard but I needed a harder grip and stronger sucking, so rather than ask, I told her “pass me the lube, lay down, bring your pussy to me.” She got flushed and got excited, and as soon as I saw her smile and watched her slide into position for me, and the lube hit my cock, I was hard in literally 3 seconds. I entered her, it was fucking amazing, she came really hard in about 15 seconds, and I could not hold out more than a minute. I pulled out and shot the longest biggest rope I’ve released in easily a few years, it landed on her neck and ran down both sides and connected all the way down to her belly button; multiple more huge ropes followed. I was beside myself happy and extremely relieved!!!! She was too! She had worried I wouldn’t be able to pull it off because of everything in the past.

I honestly, honestly, believe that it worked last night because I’ve been off porn for over 6 weeks now. Being with her was really exciting but calming, natural, and organic. It felt soothing and chill, but exciting enough to be able to get aroused and ramped up with sexual energy. I feel like all hurdles have been surpassed now. I have confidence in myself, my sex, my cock and erection, and will power in ways I haven’t felt in maybe 2 years. It is so extremely liberating.

Yesterday afternoon I got on MFC and cancelled my account. I’ve had it for 9 years. Can’t believe its been that long. I read all the caveats of what to think about before cancelling, and the site was like “maybe you got upset at a member or model, or are just having a bad day. Before you get rid of all you’ve earned here, think about it before you deactivate your account, because once you do you cannot recover any of your old data or achievements.” ACHIEVEMENTS?!?!? What, hours, days, hell, months of lost time?? Sure the site brought me massive orgasms in the past and I watched hundreds of women have orgasms and dance etc.. But my god, achievements. I read that shit and instantly, without a second of hesitation, hit the “ok” button. Today I cancel my Chaturbate account, I don’t want to get on there to do it at all but once I do its the last time, ever.

Last night was a major, major breakthrough in my life and I needed it. I thought I’d never accomplish what I hoped for again. But I did. Everyone’s words and stories here are inspirational and make me feel really good about myself and my process right now. So thanks everyone! And thanks for reading my stories, I’m a bit long winded but this shit is important and I really like to write ;)

Sure man anytime! Mindfulness is amazing, it is healing from within and you can do it without anything. You just need you. I’m so happy you are getting your groove back! It sounds great. I think you’re in good shape with a girl in the (hopefully) near future, too. Just go with the flow and let things take their course.

Excellent pumpedmember. Don’t look back.

Chaturbate gone forever! That was easier than I thought it would be. Instantly I looked at the windows of online people and glanced at everyone and was like “ehhhhhh, meh, doesn’t look that hot to me” and while going through the motions of deactivating my account I thought I would feel like “maybe, maybe I’ll wait?” but I didn’t, it felt awesome hitting the button to do it. 5 years CB, goodbye and whatever!!

Deleting downloaded computer porn next, pretty easy. Almost all of it I’ve only seen once, or maybe never. The free disc space, my god! What will I do with all this disc space!?!?!

I had a sink-the-titanic type boner two nights ago for sex with my wife, so extremely hard from almost no stimulation, just horny for my wife. This all feels good, I’m at the point where I don’t feel like I want to look at anything pornographic; I’m not compelled to. If I feel some horny feelings I don’t turn it on, I just touch myself and think about it. I need to learn how to bring my mindfulness practice during prostate stimulation sessions, which are always 100% porn free, into my regular penis-based masturbation sessions. Some of my solo play has been fun and good, others kind of boring and I’m not motivated enough to extend the feelings. Like, I can’t edge. I need to learn how to edge with no porn on, with porn its so easy I usually go 30-60 minutes of playing with my erection non stop and then shoot. But edging to nothing but just me is good and fun and then it just kind of goes away and I lose motivation. I guess I need to practice!!

Oh, I’ve also recently watched Pornocracy, which really, really made me change my mind about my habit. What a gross fucking industry porno has become. Its a numbers game now where porno is run and ruled by computer programmers, not real pornographers or adult entertainment people. If anyone’s seen it what did you think? How do you think about it? If you haven’t its on Amazon Prime and worth a viewing if you’re into what porn does and what its all about now. And Hot Girls Wanted, that was pretty gross.

Just my musing of late, I feel like I need to check in here occasionally, everyone’s been supportive and helpful and the vibes are GOOD!!! hope y’all are well

Me, too. Though I have to admit, it was less about my ethics than it was about seeing how shallow it all was.

Whatever the reason, it’s gone from my life.

yay! Glad to hear this!