Thunder's Place FKs with my mind
.Until I realized that all this shit is in your head, and for every guy that thinks his dick is too small there are 20 girls that have much worse self-esteem issues. At least that helps me a little, but honestly.. We live our lives in first-person; who cares about other people’s problems? Other people’s mediocrity is no excuse for my own, imo.
At first I had absolutely no self-esteem issue about what I kept inside my pants. 6” BPEL x 4” EG? Maybe a little skinny, but at least somewhat average, and I was bottoming out on the girl I was with. Even though there have been girls who I didn’t bottom out on or completely fill up, they always wanted the sex more than I did and always talked about how great it was (which is saying a lot.. I’m 19). Nothing was wrong at all, and I even prided myself in my sexual prowess, especially when it came to oral and digital (random: digital sex makes me think of cyborgs).
In reality, I’m a total noob around here. Do the math and you’ll figure out that I registered an account here when I was 15, but I really didn’t care about how big my dick was then.. I was getting laid anyway. But recently, I’m fucking *flush* with self-esteem issues. I have a girl now who mentioned that she was with a guy so hung she couldn’t fit his member in her mouth, and that KILLED ME. I don’t know what it was, but I felt like shit (and I still do a bit). It’s really fucking stupid because she’s downright in love with me (and never liked that other guy, not even the sex, unless of course she’s lying), and whenever I’m off of this site I realize it, but it still kills me whenever I dwell on it.. So basically, whenever I’m on this site.
At the very least I think I can change my size. I’ve been doing the newbie routine plus wearing a cock ring after jelqing, which has been giving me fantastic noticeable flaccid results, even without the ring (I haven’t measured yet), so I feel like I’m on the right track to some solid gains. I even feel girthier already, but that might be in my head.
I don’t know where the hell I’m going with this, but I guess I’m getting over it. I read the “brainwashing” article linked at the top of the newbie forum, but still. It’s really hard to get over this type of thing. I’m so used to being ultra-competitive at whatever I do (I go to a great school, get good grades, go out all the time, work out daily.), and I really, REALLY want to give my girlfriend some great sex. Ok, I just realized ranting really isn’t helping that much, and the longer I stay on this site, the worse I feel (not to mention too many assholes just end up bitching like sissies around here). I’m really happy I have the knowledge to change a part of my body that I once thought was limited by my genetics; it DOES give me a bit of consolation..
Thanks to whoever reads this.. Time to go work out mini-me!
In it for the long run (and the long one!).