Originally Posted by YouknowD
I’m 21, got hpv when I was 19. Worst thing that could ever happen to me. People always talk about people that have std’s like they are the dirtiest, most nasty people. I was one of those people until I got warts myself. They never talk about how to feel or what to do when you get diagnosed. Basically my self esteem, confidence, everything has gone down the drain. I’m terrified about getting into a relationship with a woman. Just for the simple fact that I will have to tell her what I have. Putting up with the chance of this woman saying I can’t be with you because of it. I’m terrified I’m going the meet the woman of my dreams, the woman I wish to marry, and she won’t give me a chance because of what I have.
A year ago I met a girl, my present girlfriend and I took the big step in telling her about my warts. That was so crappy, holding back tears as I was telling her. I was so afraid she was going to say see ya nasty boy. Well she chose to be with me anyway, and we wore condoms. Eventually she said that we could have it unprotected, and after making sure she was sure, we did. So now she shares this disease.
This is where I’m at in my llife right now, stuck in a relationship. It’s been a year now, and I’m not happy being with her anymore. Things just aren’t the way they used to be. I’m 21, have my whole life ahead of me. I wan’t to get out, meet new people, friends, women. I can’t do it though. One, I’m scared to have to tell another woman about it like I told this one. Two, I’m ridden with guilt! I gave her warts, and now I want to leave her.
I must go my time is up at the library. But it feels good to get that off my chest. Any comments, advise, suggestions are welcome. Thanks guys.
Sorry for any typos, I had to hurry.
Young man I feel for you. I know the guilt as well since I have been in your same shoes. Unfortunately STDs are common, so common that you and your current GF will be find if you separate. She is young and if she is healthy, she has a great chance of her body kicking out the HPV.
As for what you are dealing with emotionally, I’ve been there as I already states so I completely understand the guilt you feel. The difference is I married the girl and I’m happy, but when she has an outbreak I just feel like crap.
Regarding you leaving her, you should free her and yourself. You are right, you are young and so is she. At least you were honest and she can’t fault you for it.
Moving on you might want to try a dating website for people like us. I found a few out there which I liked, specifically this one #1 STD Dating Website for Positive Singles - Join Free Today!. Its the only one comparable to Match. Com and other quality dating websites.
I think having to tell someone that you have a disease is the worst part, so give yourself a break and date people who understand. Who knows, maybe you will find love there.
Good luck and I’m sure everything will work it’s self out for you.