HPV messing with my life
I’m 21, got hpv when I was 19. Worst thing that could ever happen to me. People always talk about people that have std’s like they are the dirtiest, most nasty people. I was one of those people until I got warts myself. They never talk about how to feel or what to do when you get diagnosed. Basically my self esteem, confidence, everything has gone down the drain.
I’m terrified about getting into a relationship with a woman. Just for the simple fact that I will have to tell her what I have. Putting up with the chance of this woman saying I can’t be with you because of it. I’m terrified I’m going the meet the woman of my dreams, the woman I wish to marry, and she won’t give me a chance because of what I have.
A year ago I met a girl, my present girlfriend and I took the big step in telling her about my warts. That was so crappy, holding back tears as I was telling her. I was so afraid she was going to say see ya nasty boy. Well she chose to be with me anyway, and we wore condoms. Eventually she said that we could have it unprotected, and after making sure she was sure, we did. So now she shares this disease.
This is where I’m at in my llife right now, stuck in a relationship. It’s been a year now, and I’m not happy being with her anymore. Things just aren’t the way they used to be. I’m 21, have my whole life ahead of me. I wan’t to get out, meet new people, friends, women. I can’t do it though. One, I’m scared to have to tell another woman about it like I told this one. Two, I’m ridden with guilt! I gave her warts, and now I want to leave her.
I must go my time is up at the library. But it feels good to get that off my chest. Any comments, advise, suggestions are welcome. Thanks guys.
Sorry for any typos, I had to hurry.