After reading all these stories, I feel like the best thing for me to do is vent, and start posting myself, and really get motivated to make bigger changes. Some of you have really touched a sensitive side with me and I feel like I owe it to share some terrible stories of mine that led me here.
So as of right now I’m currently BPEL = 6.1” - EG = 5.0” . But only a year ago I used to be around BPEL = 5.5-5.4” - EG = 4.5”. A bit under average, and I knew it, but denied to help my confidence. I’ve only started doing PE for a month on and off now, but the past 2 weeks really hit the schedule. I’m still doing a lot of learning. So anyways..
I’d always see porn and friends talking about having 7 inchers or bigger, and obviously intimidating me, knowing that “what if the girl I hook up with has had way bigger.” After I actually lost my virginity,and did it a few times, I realized I was actually pretty good, and only got better with my techniques. After my first, I ended up with a different girl I fell in love with for 2 years and that was my biggest achievement. I made her cum like no tomorrow, screaming and pulling, trying to get away, but I wouldn’t let her. I knew I could plow the pussy, even if I wasn’t huge. But things would change after we broke up. And 2 weeks later she’s already with another guy.
My first real “is it in yet?” experience, wasn’t too much that, but rather just a huge wake up call. I had sex with this girl, and only knowing virgin tight pussies, she was far from it. I was fingering her for a while until she had a little orgasm and couldn’t resist getting in. She doesn’t say anything when I pull it out, but when I put it in, there wasn’t much change in the expression on her face.. So I figure she just needs to get worked on first. I start going at it, and it’s not phasing her the slightest bit, so I go harder, and harder, until finally I realize this isn’t working, my confidence goes down the drain and in 3 minutes prematurely ejaculate on the spot. Needless to say it was quite awkward afterwards, especially the whole ride home taking her back. Yikes. Thankfully she spared my feelings and said it was alright, it happens.
Wake up call number two, a year and a half later, my ex actually wants to get back with me, but she’s in a relationship with another guy (the one she started dating 2 weeks after we broke up), but she says he’s not very experienced, blahblah. So she asks me to pick her up at midnight, and we end up fucking for three days. Around the 2nd day I ask her how big he is, and she doesn’t say, I don’t care, she’s in bed with me, obvious sign. But I ask her how much bigger could I be that would satisfy her more, and curiosity killed the cat. She says another inch would be PERFECT. <B>This line, would be the FATE of every woman I’ve ever slept with.</b> One more inch. I’m forever tormented by this fucking inch. Width and length. Anyways, after the 3rd day of fucking her brains out and making her scream uncontrollably, we finish up and get dressed and she starts crying.. She says she doesn’t love me like she used to , and this is all wrong. Blahblah another broken heart, and a confidence breaker. (Even though the sex was amazing)
Number 3. I start talking to this chubby girl, she’s not TOO chubby, but she was loose as HELL, a lot of the time I could hardly feel it in her, even bare backing it, unless she pulled her vagina back to tighten it up HAHA. But she ALWAYS seemed to enjoy it. In fact she’s been with multiple black guys, guys with 9 inches, a few 8’s, and a bunch of 7’s. So I’m here with my 5.9 inches of doom. (I must have grown a bit from kegeling and holding my hard ons and letting it fill up while masterbating for 45 minutes). I end up being the only guy to ever make this girl cum through intercourse. What an achievement ! ! My confidence level went through the roof!! Who cares about a bigger penis? I’m awesome. I recently had a conversation with her, and asked her how much bigger I could be.. Guess what answer I got? HAH
A few months later I get cocky and met up with this other chick I’ve never really hung out with, and she knows she wants to fuck. So we get going to it, and I’m slightly nervous now. Uh oh.. Bad move.. I do it anyways.. And prematurely ejaculate within 20 seconds.I play it off and keep trying to go. I’m there hovering over her for 12 minutes trying to get it hard again, finally I do, and start going at it. It’s going good, then BAM the urge to nut hits me like a ton of bricks. And I lose it AGAIN. I’m FULLY embarrassed at this point and just call it a night. I blame it on the fact that I haven’t had sex in forever.( lies ) So my confidence level destroyed again.
Though I’ve had sex with over 20 women, I’ve only failed to satisfy 4 of them.
Now only recently I have a beautiful girlfriend that I’m very serious about, and actually 100% loyal, like I’ve never been before. And I have a HUGE passion to please her in every way. She’s only been with 3 other guys, 2 only once and the other one was a steady guy for a few years, but they’ve all been bigger than me. She claims that her boyfriend was too big in girth and it never pleasured her. None of them ever accomplished making her cum, at all. I was the first to achieve this (and almost everytime). I FULLY satisfy her. She SWEARS that I’m perfect and that she doesn’t want it bigger. She “doesn’t care”. Which means if it did get bigger she’d probably enjoy it more, but wouldn’t find it necessary? Does this seem right? I mean I wanna believe her, but I think my own insecurities make me feel like secretly she’s saying she wants that extra inch (maybe more =D).
So I’ve started fully dedicating myself to reading, studying, and applying as much as I can to PE to reach my goals and really get my confidence where it should be!
