Anxiety Is Killing Me

So welcome to the life of a bissexual male who never got lucky with ladies. All the fellas I managed to put my dick on seemed to have units that are double the size of mine (oddly enough all of them are hard bottoms so they don’t use their gifted package for anything). Actually one of them told me he tried girls before but didn’t like it and now is a trans woman.

So here I am. I never heard complaints about my size but something appears to be haunting me in all of this situation.

My flaccid size is a joke I haven’t bothered to measure, my EQ has always been shit (which makes me afraid to start doing PE just in case this is the leaky valve thing). I have read and re-read this forum for years but I never went past three days or so of exercises either because of injuries or lack of commitment. If I press down the ruler to the point of almost drilling my pubic bone I get a BPEL of 15.5cm or so.

Judging by the rock hard hardons I gave to the bottoms I must’ve done things right and my size shouldn’t be an issue but yet I don’t personally feel good about it.

To add insult to injury I also happen to have excess foreskin so the newbie routine which favors jelqs a lot has always been a struggle for me.

Honestly I can’t wrap my head around all of this. I’ve always been looking at the news section just in case there was some amazing breakthrough in PE that would work better for me.

My blood tests say I’m lacking B12 and vitamin D so that could explain the lethargy. I also take vyvanse for ADHD, venlafaxine, olanzapina and rivotril for anxiety.

I’m not feeling good about myself overall, to the point of spending a whole day crying, I also gained some weight and am so out of myself that I can’t even get out of home and do anything.

Sorry about the long post, I just need some help.

That puts you on the larger side of average. Nothing to be ashamed of there, even if you feel different about it.

Low B12 can cause neurological problems. Low D3 is bad for everything.

Dietary supplements are the usual treatment, though injections are sometimes used for B12 and ultraviolet light or sunlight for D3.

Meds for ADHD and anxiety are known for causing "performance issues" like erectile dysfunction or low libido. Medicine is great, but nothing comes for free. You might want to read up on the declared side effects, and perhaps discuss things with your doctor.

It sucks, but you’re not alone.

It sounds like you need to go with a whole-body program instead of just PE.

If you want, I can use my super-moderator-power and move this over into the public "Progress Reports" section, or the members-only "Progress Reports and Pictures" section, and you can use this as the start of a progress thread.

That’s what we’re here for.

As AndyJ said, 15.5 cm (or over 6 inches) is good in itself. But what’s significant is that it’s big enough that it can be lengthened into a legitimately big cock. As for flaccid, that’s much easier to do. Concentrate on manual stretches for flaccid.

Tight underwear are a detriment to a better flaccid. Many of us go commando; I’m a believer. Piss pulls are another way of improving flaccid hang. If unfamiliar, just use the search button for piss pulls. They’re in the family of manual stretches.

Sp ive dpne some serioisly hard shit in life that took ten + years of dedicatiin, but PE is the ultimate mind fuck.

Do the work at small intervals and condition slowly for weeks then months. Then resign to the fact this is like brushing yoir teeth and showering each day.

Anyone can do it, we.all.have the same hours in the day. But you have to be consistwnt.

There are a core group here and they are very nice. Welcome.

Maybe your size is simply Huge Ass.. et. That’s a joke

My girth hasn’t afforded me satisfying anal sex with anyone. I have anxiety about hurting my wife.

There’s so much more to self esteem and fulfillment than actual stats. I’m saying this as much for you as me. We all have hangups and this is a very supportive forum. Try some simple edging maximize your self image EQ and confidence then share it with others.

Best to you.

But actual usable D is less than that, something around 13.5 if I am honest to myself.

Last time I saw a doctor she prescribed me some B12 injections but I think she forgot about the D3 thing.

I keep beating myself for eating crap and not exercising on my younger days because I never had much performance to begin with, these meds only came into my life in the last two or three years (so I spent most of my life undiagnosed).

Yes! That would be amazing.

Thank you so much for being supportive, I don’t think people elsewhere would understand me.

So far I’ve blamed excess foreskin for not being able to to stretches and jelqs without injuring myself but something I noticed eventually is that my unit simply feels rigid and does not stretch like on the video instructions we have on this forum.

What could it be? Could I maybe need some supplements such as creatine to make it more elastic?

Also, back to the foreskin issue, is it possible that if my unit grows larger it would eventually even out? Or should I expect to stay the same or have even more?

Your anxiety is what is causing all the issues.

You see, that’s my biggest weakness: habits. It may sound ridiculous but I just feel like there aren’t enough hours in the day to tick all the boxes. Also I spent months consistently doing my bed when I wake up only to suddenly lose this good habit.

Other times I tried filling the void of my life with more work and so I excused myself for not taking care of my body because “work is important”.

Looking in retrospect it’s obvious how dumb that is but my stupid brain likes to believe its own lies.

I never managed to find what triggers this stupid mode to pivot away from it, using those techniques you read online.

This thing alone makes me think I’m my biggest enemy. Like if I don’t shower everyday how can I expect to follow a PE routine properly?

Same issue happens in reverse too: sometimes I just can’t stop doing something that needs to be done piece by piece over a couple of days or so. I feel the urge to do everything as soon as possible. So apply that concept to PE and you end up with an injured over-trained dick.

Not to say that I personally hate repetition so much I end up wasting time automating stuff and moving the furniture around the house to give it a different look.

In short I struggle with habits and fear making PE another thing that just drifts away from my chaotic life. I do well at work though.

Have you seen a therapist?

I have an appointment due next week with my usual psychiatrist but no I haven’t seen a therapist yet.

You have issues that need to be addressed and you can’t do it alone. There is no shame in needing someone’s help to enable you have a good enjoyable life. When you have a good friend, someone you can confide in with no fear of shame that helps greatly. Talking out your problems and being able to call when you need help is invaluable.

Now sometimes therapist or psychiatrist don’t really give the time a patient needs to help them. It’s easy to give a pill. Does your doctor spend time with you to help you out? It’s important.

PE really can’t be rushed. It just can’t. Just like proving bread, it just takes as long as it takes. The best you can provide is the right environment and ingredients.

Start with the newbie routine and manual stretches jelqs and some manual squeezes at the end.

You can totally do wet jelqs with lots of foreskin. I have lots of foreskin and it doesn’t prevent me from jelqing. The technique is:

1. Pull your foreskin back as far as you can.

2. Grab right behind your glans just like you’re stretching and stretch your dick out.

3. With your other hand make an Ok grip around the base of your penis and PUSH as far into your fat pad as possible while still pulling your dick stretched out.

4. Squeeze your Ok grip to hold all the blood you’ll be jelqing with in.

5. Release your glans and with that hand make an upside down peace symbol with your index finger and middle finger and stick it right behind your OK grip. Then very slowly jelq with the Ok grip while holding all the skin taught with your upside down V fingers.

6. Repeat.

I aim for at least 10 seconds per jelq and DONT use more than 50% erection level for this.

I totally second the suggestion to see a therapist. Psychiatrists are NOT therapists and instead seem to only address issues with medication.
My wife was able to get off all meds her psychiatrist had prescribed for anxiety by working with a good therapist. (Cognitive behavioral therapy)

The best thing I think you could do in the mean time, is to start taking care of your health.
Eat real food: veggies and meat not processed chemical garbage

Begin a simple sustainable, enjoyable exercise regimen. This can be as simple as taking a daily 30 minute walk and then slowly increasing things from there. I started doing push ups and squats on my walk, then added pull-ups on a branch eventually.

Walking specifically is really good for depression.

Doing even a little can have a big impact if you make it a habit. And the best way to do that is to make it something you enjoy and look forward to.

As far as your size:
You’re fine. You’re bigger than average. As a bi swinger I can assure you, you measure up just fine and you (your head) are the only one standing in your way when it comes to women.

A year and a half ago mine was over two inches thick; I couldn’t even get a ruler down to the pubic bone to get a bone-pressed reading.

Are you getting the injections? If not, you need to leave her a message reminding her.

D3 is normally augmented by oral supplements. Be aware it’s a "diminishing returns" thing; there’s only so much D3 uptake available through the stomach. You can get D3 supplements without a prescription at most drug stores, some pharmacies, or even grocery stores. It’s one of the most common supplements.

You can start by cleaning up your diet. Meat is good. Carbs are bad. Avoid candy, soft drinks, breakfast cereals, anything with added sugar or high-fructose corn syrup. Carbs taste good and pack a lot of calories; they’re an efficient fuel source. But not everyone’s metabolism is suited to a high-carb diet.

If you’re going to try to clean your life up, you seriously need to try a keto or carnivore diet. But it’s more of a lifestyle change than a diet, and if you’re already juggling meds, exercise, and PE, your life will be complicated enough already. But keep it in mind for the future.

I think it worked. At least, I didn’t accidentally send the thread into the bit bucket. Frankly, I’m surprised the other moderators allow me access to the knobs and levers behind the scenes.