Help me with injury
Forgive me but I am new here, this is my first post and have a significant problem. Please let me bend the posting rules a little bit. I can’t post in the injury section yet and need help now. I have experimented with pumping mostly by using a glass vase with a neck just the right size to fit on the base of my shaft snugly. Then insert a thin tube between the glass and my shaft to suck the air out, and remove the hose. I used the brake bleeder pump at first but discovered that my mouth could pull quite the vacuum. Did this occasionally for 2 years, mostly in the bath, for up to 20 minutes or so then masturbated my slightly swollen member. In 2 years I saw minute length gain and definitely more girth. About a month ago I discovered the silicone sleeve. Played with the sleeve + glass vase and found that I could pump and hang and the vase wouldn’t slip off, even hung with water in the vase. Last week I was hanging in the vase, fully hard, straight down and used my hips to swing the vase fore and aft and also side to side while standing. (IDIOT!) I remember at one point wanting to remove it but the suction was high and it was hard to get air into the vase in order to release. I did get my dick out but there was lots of pulling, and at some point some urine tried to come out but was caught and under pressure. Not sure how long after but within a day or 2 I saw that my shaft was small and hard (hard flaccid?) The vein on top of my shaft is soft. I do get morning wood and can get very hard with manual and visual stimulation as well as ejaculate (weak coming out). It won’t stay hard on its own though. I have a strange feeling to each side of the shaft at the base by the pubic bone, sort of a dull ache. In the past I could use the muscle that stops urine flow to raise my erect penis up and could also control some movement to the left or right. The left / right is not happening any more now. Did I pull or tear a ligament? I wish I knew 3 weeks ago what I know now. I thought I was unbreakable. Dr. Said there is small amount of blood in urine, gave me the name of a urologist and ordered a cat scan. She also noted what looks like a hernia up and left from the pubic bone. Also note that I have been under extreme stress for a few months and I had a hernia repaired 12 years ago with the mesh. Am I screwed?