How is everyone doing who has tried to quit porn? Its been since summer since anyone has updated this thread. I’m 2 years and 7 months into no porn now. I do look at big clit pics maybe every other month for about 10 minutes just to see how huge female genitalia is lately. I look at SI swimsuit model pics that come up in my news feed (weird I know, in my news feed) every week. I jerk off to none of this material, I don’t even try to get hard, I keep my clothes on. Haven’t been in a chatroom since I quit porn. I’ve looked at pornhub or xhamster 2 or 3 times this year just to see what porno looks like now, what blocks are on the screen, what are the porn sites selling. About the same as I remember when I used daily. Sometimes I look up "biggest cumshot" just to see some huge production, maybe every other month, a few minutes. But I haven’t actively jerked it to porn images/videos and I haven’t cum while watching or looking at anything since I quit 23 March 2021. In Sept last year I took a vacation and dropped some mdma and tried to watch porn to see what it did to me. I couldn’t make it through one scene, it was a hot scene I used to love too. I felt really bad for the actors in it, and wished they had fucked on their own for their own benefit away from camera. That moment really made me dislike porn even more. I left the living room, went into the bedroom, and proceeded to self pleasure the shit out of myself and had a most fulfilling orgasmic ejaculation (the 3rd of my roll at that point, I came another time after).
My self pleasure sessions are eye rolling skull splitting unreal anymore. I cum so fucking hard, sometimes I’m left laughing its so intense. I get hard just thinking about things now, with my cock in my underwear. I watch my wife mover her hair around and it gives me swelling. In a bra with pants on, I’m swelling up uncontrollably. Anticipating sex with her at anytime makes me hot and bothered, like biting-my-lower-lip bothered. When we do have sex I’m hard almost the whole time, my glans is beet red and swollen up hard and shiny, she loves it working her g spot more now than ever. All my ejaculations are explosive, I pull out to cum on her and they all hit her neck, face, forehead, breasts, or fly over her head or next to her head. Even when I cum earlier in the day, I’m blowing it far on to her. I pleasure myself not every day but if I do there’s never a drop in vigor, excitement, or response. I can cum in just a few minutes or 30 minutes, there is plenty to do with myself.
I’ve quit smoking weed about 6 months ago and have only gotten high a few times since, just with friends here and there for special occasions. Precum production is higher now than ever as a result, and I make more jizz too. All my dopamine is dedicated to real, unadulterated sexual response. No social media sites, no porn, I use computers for work and forums like Thunder’s and two others. Cell phone use is minimal and its mainly texting, map use, chess, and a sex tracker log. I was dedicated to weed for prostate sessions, now I never need weed and my prostate and anal response is through the roof and I have more hands-free orgasms now than I’ve had in 10 years stimming my prostate and ass. P-spot Os in mere seconds upon starting a session. Weed helped make my mind go blank. Now I just tune out the bad thoughts and busy crap and tune in to my body and breathing. I think not using porn for my penis response and pleasuring has helped me tune in to my body in all ways more and more.
When I do think about porn, or just getting on the computer to look and possibly get hard to it, I think "why?" "What is so compelling about it? Why did I do it in the first place? I can get hard without it. I can cum without it." I think about the dopamine linkages and how harmful they are for my whole life, every single aspect of my life, and it grosses me out and the thought "porn" just passes by like breathing out one breath. Then I’m on to some other thought or activity. I make this all sound easy and I’m sorry. Its not. I was so hooked. I needed it. I wanted it. I used to watch it while my wife was in the shower getting ready for sex, she’s cumming her brains out using the shower head on her clit, and I’m watching some cam model dancing around with her boobs in the screen, rock hard, and when my wife would come out to me, blushed, pussy soaked and swollen for my cock, I’d lose wood in seconds. Her real body wasn’t enough for my cock to get hard, I needed porn. Now I’m hard minutes before I even see her, the thought of having sex with her makes me so hard with or without me touching myself. She doesn’t even get to make me hard anymore, I’m hard already.
She’s been on HRT for 7 months now and her drive is coming back fast and strong. She’s not initiating yet, but if there’s any kind of loving touch or intimate looks and kisses, she’s getting wet and wants to fuck. A month or so ago we were fucking and we were changing positions and she grabbed my cock at the base before I put it back in her and she exclaimed through clenched teeth "I love this FUCKING COCK" and then grunted out several more Os blissed out of her skull before I splattered her with ropes. She’s never said anything like that before not in 25 years even when we were fucking more than once a day. I was giving her a massage, head and neck, a month ago and she wasn’t in the mood for sex before, but after the massage, she touched my legs and then my cock unprovoked, and then raced to go take a shower. She yelled for me to "see" and brought out her panties, they were drenched with a puddle of grool and lady juice, and she said "she’s already ready, let me go cum hard and clean up and I’ll meet you in the bedroom." I’m liking that her libido is coming back finally after a year and a half of absence, and my porn addiction and reliance is a long gone thing of the past :)
I hope and pray to all y’all men here that have tried to quit, or have quit, that you are staying off porn and moving on with your lives for the better. You can do it. If I can I know y’all can too! Good luck and bless you all, may your erections shatter glass and put out eyes ;)
