Update!
First, hope everyone is doing good and achieving your personal goals. If you’re quitting or trying to quit porn, or have succeeded, hooray! Keep trying and keep succeeding. It is all so worth it.
I’ve made it 8 months now, a little over 32 weeks, without Pornhub, xHamster, xporn, Chaturbate, MFC, and much of everything else that is and can be out there. I haven’t even been on Reddit for the r/bigclit subreddit in I think over 2 months now, I was looking maybe every 6 weeks just to see what kinds of female anatomy are out there (I’m into human variation and sexuality, like a LOT) and when I looked I was clothed and was just curious to see just how big clits are. But even just my biological curiosities of the human body are starting to dwindle because it involves finding stuff online, and surfing online for nudity, porn and all related is the poison I’ve quit and actively avoid. Its the “finding new material online” that is the hitch for me, the major problem, the cause of my shame over all things pornography. That time I spent for so long, searching and waiting patiently for “the biggest clitoris reveal” or “the biggest female squirt” or “massive convulsing pussy orgasms” and “biggest cumshot” that I cannot get back, all that time I spent waiting and waiting to see these things, and when the “it” was shown, revealed and then over, I always felt like “that’s it? I waited over an hour for just that?” and then I’d do it again later, and the next day, and next day, and weeks and weeks and weeks ad nauseum.
I’ve been feeling extremely good. I do not think about trying to see anything during the day working at home alone. I just don’t have those thoughts anymore. Nothing is nagging at my brain. Sure I pull my cock out and stroke it and appreciate it and how good it feels. I edge a little during the day here and there just for fun, to feel the sensations and stimulation, and then stop and wait till later for either my wife or alone time and a solo explosion. I do all my masturbation and play with no outside influences (all my prostate play has been without porn or anything related for the last 7 years). I’ve been able to go at it with myself for at least 20 minutes now, sometimes even 30 minutes if I’m feeling really strong and having a lot of fun. My first masturbation without porn when I quit in March this year I could only last 2 minutes for fear of losing my erection without porn to help keep it up. It took months to just get to 10 minutes; with porn in the past I’d stroke for a minimum of 30 minutes before I even committed to my fleshlight to fuck it so I can release, and most of my masturbation back then with porn lasted 45-60 minutes. The 10 to 20 minutes of edging and playing is much more fun than anything I can remember going back to when I was young, it feels very “teenagerish” now and the excitement of my erection, and just the “me being me” feelings are overwhelming, very very fun stuff. Exciting even! Fantasies aren’t really there, I don’t imagine porn women or scenes from the past, I don’t think of fucking my wife while I’m fucking my fleshlight, I just focus on my own body, my cock and the pleasure; I tunnel into the pleasure and live and breathe with it. My orgasms have been even stronger than they already were, which is so strong I close my eyes uncontrollably and have a hard time opening them, I’m wincing from the strength of my contractions, and my cumshots and semen volume are up. Like way up. Even if I cum 4 times in an afternoon, I’m still shooting off on orgasm #4, it might be a small tiny amount of cum, but it goes several feet. Lots more power behind everything related to my sex now.
I get hard so much faster now than I have in the last 10+ years. Sometimes it would take well over a minute for the blood to finally fill me up completely. Now I’m getting hard just from the first few kisses with my wife. That first gentle stroke and touch of her vulva and pubic hair. A kiss on her breasts and nipples. Just looking at her react and moan from my touch is enough to make my cock engorge and become hard on its own with no touch at all. This is not what I’m used to! For 20+ years I’ve needed direct stimulation of my cock to first get hard and then stay hard. Now its hard and bouncing around when I move around the room, if I have to go grab more towels, the lube is on the other side of the bed and I have to get up to go get it, etc.: I’m staying hard throughout this and it is new and awesome and welcomed!!
I am restoring my glans, too. I’ve been at it for almost 10 weeks straight now and it is physically different. Deeper red color all the time. Silky smooth its so soft and smooth. I can’t explain what it feels like. Both my wife and I are beside ourselves with how it feels. Like real silk but its skin. Its amazing and unreal that’s all I know! When I get hard my glans is always fully swollen and firm, the skin on the glans is stretched to the max and the light reflects off of it like a mirror. It is bright white light reflecting off my glans, this is very new. Anyway, even though glans restoration is increasing my sensitivity and ability to feel brand new pleasures and sensations in my life, the lack of porn is increasing my EQ and it shows in my glans. Bulbous now more than ever. No-porn has helped make it that way for sure.
PE and pumping is better now. I get hard fast and on demand for my pump. I stay fuller longer in semi state for jelqs. Blood flow seems better: I get few to no red spots and my edema on my foreskin still pops up when I pump over 30 minutes, but I think the glans restoration I’m doing is making my foreskin more sensitive and more susceptible to edema, sadly. Even though there is small edema, its still less than before when I used porn. So I warm up more carefully and don’t push it. In the past I’d watch porn the entire time and my EQ during pumps was horrible. I’d spend like 5+ minutes trying to get hard, sometimes even just 80% hard, to get in the tube and now I spend like 15 seconds and I’m rock hard just alone in the bathroom in front of a mirror. I’m telling you, quitting porn is making all of this stuff easier. So much easier.
I have a new found excitement for sex with my wife. Its been growing in strength the last few months, but the last month its reaching an almost fever pitch. Just thinking of her naked makes an urge deep inside my body start to grow and show itself. This kind of urge or feeling is new to me. I’ve had something like it, but not like this. Not like now. The anticipation while I wait for her to come to the bedroom is not stressful in a “will I be able to get hard and perform for her and me?” kind of way, but more so a “I cannot wait to give her my big hard on and help her cum over and over and over and I cannot wait to feel my hard on inside her mouth, her hand, and her body!!” I mean I’m getting fully hard in this state in just seconds. When I was on porn she’d be sucking me and it wouldn’t make any blood move at all. Now I’m hard just thinking about what she’s going to do to me. Even if its barely anything, its still way exciting, but not stressful. No anxiety about any of this like this past spring when I suffered major ED with her. I laugh at those days now: all that fear I felt, the shame, the embarrassment, the swearing off sex for good so I didn’t have to face the stress of it anymore—those thoughts are gone and I’m so much better off now I don’t have those fears to face.
To those who’ve quit porn, how is it going? Seeing any positive changes? Feeling anything new happen? To those trying to quit but go back to it, how did it feel when you were off it? Were you off it long enough to feel a difference? I guy I write with online said he quit everything for a few weeks but “didn’t feel anything different” so he went back to it, but now just looks at cam rooms. I felt something happen in just 2 days: fear. Fear of not being able to function sexually without porn. Those first times masturbating without porn was harrowing. But I got through it and the rewards after were sweet and delicious :) If you don’t “feel” anything different you might not be registering exactly what the changes are if you are expecting something to be so different it is abnormal. Like men who chase prostate orgasms: they expect something “bigger” or “newer” or “better” than what they currently know, but the new sensation might not be as big at all, and the subtle new feelings might be as big as it can be and that’s all it should be. Like if you take a pill for larger semen loads and there isn’t an instant amazing change, and you ditch the pills because change wasn’t noticed. You can’t get inside your brain to see how your neurons are acting after you quit porn to see if there’s monumental change or improvement in your life mentally. Change and improvement from quitting porn might just be that you smile a little bit more than normal, or you appreciate a tree or a flower or birds or clouds a little more than normal, or when you talk to someone you open up just a tiny bit more than normal. Maybe imperceptible to you, but its change nonetheless. And positive change at that.
Good luck everyone! The benefits of this journey are so worth it I wish I had come to this realization years and years ago and wish that crisis was not the impetus to make this change recently. Quit now before you get behind. Quit before crisis sets in. If you feel you are in crisis mode sexually by all means assess your life and situation and make changes. Just don’t wait till you’re crying in the bedroom with your limp dick in your hand while your wife is waiting for you to give it to her!! Avoid that moment by all means necessary.