When To Call It Quits
I have been a member of this site for a long time (I only have a few post) and I have no idea where to post this so I posted to the first forum I had access to.
I have a long history with PE and consider a minimal routine; like the newbie routine, necessary for health and physiological reasons and have made considerable gains over the 13 years I have practiced it. I have come to a point where I wonder when is enough enough and when has it become purely self serving and not about our partner anymore.
I say this because over the course of the past few years I have been considering and even going to the point of infatuating the idea of extreme surgical measures to obtain the fabled monster. I don’t want to get into my size or what routine I use as it feels demonstrative to the topic. I would like to discuss when we should be honest with ourselves and be comfortable where we are at.
Is it the image we want to project to others as a masculinity symbol? The satisfaction of our partner(s)? Or is it a battle against our own psyche and self perspective.
As said earlier I have been considering surgery over the past few years and yes even silicone, even though I fully understand the massive health risk and the possibility of deformation to the point of uselessness. I have had a moment of clarity the past few months and know I will never undergo such measures but it does lead me to wonder why the fetish still persist. I know I am of adequate size for any partner but why is the need or drive to become larger still there?