I’ve come close to dumping her many times before believe me. She winds me up like crazy. Most of the time I love her but the rest of the time I feel like I hate her - like now.
I’m definitely going to keep on fucking her because I don’t want to go without pussy and I want to prove to her that I can last long and fuck her good.
I’m going to try and find out some more stuff from her though. I really want to ask her ”If you were with your ex (Lets call him John) would you prefer him to have sex with you or lick you out?”
You see, she says she prefers oral sex, but then again she says whenever she thinks of good sex she thinks of John! With me, she loves me licking her out but I almost have to beg her for sex! When I do get it, she is tight when I first try and enter her so I have to take it slow at first - I don’t know if this is normal because I’ve only had sex with two other girls. The thing is - she says I cum too quick. I agree but she is rude when she says that i’m no good at sex. She makes noises when I fuck her and I know she likes it, while im doing it, however long it lasts. Unless shes faking!! Fuck - another thing to worry about.
Last week she was in pain because she said she ”felt burning because shes allergic to those type of condoms”. Shes on the injection so we hardly ever use condoms but I can last longer with them so I was fucking her real hard and she told me to take my dick out half way through. Things like this make me re-think. She even said the next day, moaning: ”You fucked me like you were trying to kill me”..A compliment to me because I associated this to dick size like I always do with everything.
I know I’m not small, but SHE MADE ME FEEL ABOUT 000.1inches today. I’m insecure so to make myself feel better sometimes I try and ‘fish for compliments’. But theres no doing it with this girl. I would love her to tell me ”You know what babes, your dick is big, you are good at sex, I am happy with you” But its already come to the stage where if she did say that, I don’t know if I would trust that she wasnt just lying to shut me up. Better than telling me I’m small and can’t fuck good though!
I wonder how she would like it if, when next talking on the phone to her, I mentioned how big and beautiful that woman on TV’s breasts are. Is this too immature? Hmm.
I love her but she doesn’t really know how much her comments affect me. And if do discover that she really is intentionally trying to hurt me I think I will have to dump her because I want a girl whos going to make me feel good about myself - not hate myself.