Dear fellow rats, especially Dino;
I hear you. And since reading your first post in this thread I’ve been reflecting on almost two years of my time on the treadmill. When the gains were coming steadily, I was obsessive about working out; I let almost nothing interfere with those allocated time slots for PE. Gotta jelk, gotta squeeze, gotta pump. There was surely a strong element of unbalanced behavior there, however I consoled myself that this is the way I tend to do everything – work, hobbies - a total dedication to getting whatever result.
But I knew for certain that I was whacky when I started changing my own goals. First I wanted 7 inches, then when I got that, 7.5, then 8 because that seemed to be the gold card around here. But then I wanted 8.5; I wanted platinum! This is sick because in real life I have this dirt common-looking blue Visa card and all I care about is keeping the fucking due balance manageable.
I think what helped me get off the treadmill was no more gains, for months, no matter what I did. Yes, I was disappointed because I was still putting in the time; and yes, I was frustrated.
Somewhere during those months, though, it gradually dawned on me: Hello? I have a big dick. Along with a good many members of this board, I now have one of the larger dicks on this entire planet. Do I need the biggest dick on this planet? What for? I love getting blow jobs too much for that. I love certain sexual positions too much to risk precluding never doing them. It was then that I began to relax and enjoy the benefits of all that treadmill time.
Now I am pretty much retired from the mill. I doubt I work out more than a half-hour when I decide to, and I feel no guilt when I decide not to. Everything I’ve gained remains. And the bennies, too: much improved erectile function compared with 2 years ago; a good bulge in my Levis for vanity.
Am I cured? Of course not. I just have a new set of obsessions, a new treadmill, if you will. Now I am obsessed with increasing the intensity of orgasms, with ejaculation control, with timing and finding new ways to please my partner. However, Dino, this is the really fun stage of PE, and I hope you can find your way into it, too. This is, for me btw, worth all that nutso, crazed behavior.