Hey EF,
As a man recovering from decades of sex addiction I agree with what’s been said and just add, typically there’s something at the root of why we abuse anything be it porn, food, sex, media, gambling or whatever. A good (addictions) counselor could probably help you identify some things that drive you to habitually use porn which is often some kind of pain and/or shame from your past. When all else failed, counseling (and joining a SA 12-step recovery group) helped because I finally realized in myself I could not whip this beast - I needed help outside myself to deal with what was inside myself.
If you don’t feel you’re ready for counseling, you still may want to check out a Sexahilics Anonymous group in your area (if you find it impossible to kick the porn habit and from what you related, I’m guessing you may be there?). Even if you’re not a full blown sex addict, it’s just really good to get in community with guys going thru similar struggles. Thing is, you can swear off the stuff but lust is an absolute master and can game the hell out of your mind so don’t beat yourself up when it does what it’s good at (however it CAN be beaten with diligent work).
A great tool we employ is to be really intentional about taking up some good habits to replace the negative one(s) and interacting with toxic people as little as possible (so you may need some new friends). Because the brain is wired to work best from a positive mindset, this will go a long way towards helping to fill the void porn leaves - stuff like working out, hiking, biking or taking up a hobby - things that get you out of your head and preferably get you with new, positive people and having new, positive experiences.
On the physical side (although it’s of course related to the mental) as you move away from porn, your body over time will return to more natural arousal/response patterns and no doubt with good nutrition & plenty of rest, I’d bet you’ll have a surprising amount of healing - the human body’s ability to heal is amazing especially at your age (and especially with a positive mindset).
There’s no advice anyone can give you that will help if you’re not yet ready to hear it so I’m not trying to tell you what to do, but I wish someone had told me about counseling and SA groups when I was your age before things got progressively worse and eventually out of hand. Bottom line: no matter how bad it is, there is always, ALWAYS hope - we often just can’t see it in the midst of a dark, cloudy cycle of negativity. Best of luck with kicking the porn habit and with a successful PE career my friend!
QL
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