@Farew420
Thanks man. Actually got back into the routine 2 days later due to having really high libido, I thought the best course of action was to do some PE to calm my unit down. Hahaha :)
I did my routine this morning, I believe I have my jelqs on point. Each stroke is about 5 seconds and the grip is alright.
I measured after my session and was about 8.15” BPEL. Maybe it was at 8.05” BPEL. My curve makes it kind of hard to measure my length. Well, this is not a progress measurement but I had my ruler on the table, and curiosity motivated the measurement.
I have to study this summer semester for Calculus 3 and went to the library to get some shit done. I chose my spot to study and started working. There were book aisles in front of me and these cute girls come along and spend quite a good time looking for their books. I couldn’t fucking focus on my math. It was getting hard to breath and my nerves were just going crazy.
I am still a virgin up to this point, I know lame, have been talking to a few members about it, but I really wanted to just dominate these girls’ PUSS%&*..
Alright.. Gonna keep it G rated , :) .
I am self conscious about my size, mainly girth, hence my abstinence. I tell myself I do not want to have sex until I have a girth of 5.5” MEG, which I believe is a solid girth to start fucking. Another member has been talking to me about this, but I guess I should make this a part of my thread. Anything goes.
My lust for sex gets very intense at some key points throughout the week, so much, it’s hard to concentrate on things. I am sort of, and I do mean SORT OF, starting to alleviate this size anxiety. Reading stories of guys who are average being regarded as sex gods amongst the women they have slept with kind of disregards the size thing. Being raised on porn, I got a porn wired brain, but I kind of need it with my PE sessions. Big fucking conundrum. Seriously.
Seeing a therapist, although I think he isn’t gonna be of much help. Gonna keep going at it.
.Well, just typing this out kind of gives me some alleviation from the current stressors. Currently not at the library and back in my room. I don’t like being isolated, but in the presence of some fine females, my mind creates these scenarios that make it hard to stay in the moment. It’s a severe primitive disadvantage.
Have to learn to control it somehow.